
Thursday, November 05, 2009
Leaves of Autumn

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

"And some fell among thorns; and the thorns sprang up, and choked them." "He also that received seed among the thorns is he that heareth the word; and the care of this world, and the deceitfulness of riches, choke the word, and he becometh unfruitful." Matt 13:7,22
Here is represented the controversy between satanic agencies and the Prince of Life. Which will obtain the supremacy? Which will become possessor of the soul? If the truth impressed upon human hearts is carefully cherished, and the weeds are uprooted, there will be a precious crop of grain. But the gospel seed often drops among thorns and noxious weed; and if there is not a moral transformation in the human heart; if old habits and practises and the former life of sin are not left behind; if the attributes of Satan are not expelled from the soul, the wheat crop will be stunted. The thorns of sin will grow in any soil. They need no cultivation. But grace must be carefully cultivated." {RH, October 3, 1899 par. 2-3}
So my friends...I think we probably all could find a few weeds in our lives...maybe attitudes of "ungratefulness, impatience, selfishness, vanity, or vain glory..." Let's get on our knees and go find them, whatever they may be, and pull them NOW...quickly, before they get ANY bigger. God will help us!!
Monday, October 19, 2009
Moving again: The Broad or Narrow way...


"Before you are two ways--the broad road of self-indulgence and the narrow path of self-sacrifice. Into the broad road you can take selfishness, pride, love of the world; but those who walk in the narrow way must lay aside every weight, and the sin which doth so easily beset. Which road have you chosen--the road which leads to everlasting death, or the road which leads to glory and immortality? There never was a more solemn time in the history of the world than the time in which we are now living. Our eternal interests are at stake, and we should arouse to the importance of making our calling and election sure. We dare not risk our eternal interests on mere probabilities. We must be in earnest. What we are, what we are doing, what is to be our course of action in the future, are all questions of untold moment, and we cannot afford to be listless, indifferent, unconcerned. It becomes each one of us to inquire, "What is eternity to me?" Are our feet in the path that leads to heaven, or in the broad road that leads to perdition?" Our High Calling, page 8-9
Thursday, October 08, 2009
HOPE for Bengali Orphans...and HOPE for me!
Valerie and I have been humbled and challenged...and convicted...in a deeper way to make priority to share the resources God has given us...with Bangla-Hope, but also with anyone that God brings us in need.
"Said the angel, 'Get ready, get ready, get ready. Ye will have to die a greater death to the world than ye have ever yet died.' I saw that there was a great work to do for them and but little time in which to do it." Early Writings, Page 64.
"By all that has given us advantage over another, be it education and retirement, nobility of character, Christian training, religious experience, we are in debt to those less favored, and so far as lies in our power, we are to minister unto them. If we are strong, we are to stay up the hands of the weak." Ministry of Healing 29
"Jesus said unto him, If thou wilt be perfect, go and sell that thou hast, and give to the poor, and thou shalt have treasure in heaven: and come and follow me." Matt 19:21
*To donate to Bangla-HOPE or help sponsor a child, you can visit their website at: http://www.banglahope.org/ I am hoping to help them completely redo their website in the near future as it is in severe need of a face-lift, but for now, this is their contact info.
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Let me be a Servant...
“Hundreds of people push and shove their way forward as they clamor their way towards the gate entering our medical clinic and compound. Each one has been given a ticket with a number, and each one will be seen at some point in the day by our medical team, but each one still struggles to be first. Each one is sure they are number #1. In fact, as I triage and register the patients we’ve called thru the gate, I am constantly called away from my task…back to the gate by the guards. “Madam…this person has a very special case, we must let them through first.” Or “Madam, this person is a very important official in this community…even though he came late and does not have a number, we need to let him in first.” (Granted there are hundreds of more urgent and critical cases in line begging to be seen, this “important official” is convinced that he deserves to be first.)
Then there are the areas of religious prestige. “Madam, I’m Muslim or Hindu, so you should see me first.” Or “I’m Christian like you, so you should see me first.” (As if either are more deserving of help then the other.) And on and on the request go. Even the policemen, who are suppose to be helping us with crowd control, push and shove their own way to the entrance, begging to be seen by our doctors and dentist...FIRST! It is mayhem…all pushing and shoving, and all feeling that THEY of ALL PEOPLE, should receive our special services FIRST. It is only a bit of concrete and metal that keeps the mob from stampeding forward and crushing us all…”
Thankfully, the above scenes are now only a memory. Yet, amazingly, during our five days of medical work in Jalchatra, Madhupur Bangladesh…we did not get stampeded, and we saw over 3,000 patients – a number breaking the record of the last 3 years. While our medical team was smaller this year, most of the care‐givers were much more experienced and efficient…and this truly paid off in the long run.
However, as I reflect back on the scenes that took place before me just a few brief days ago, I realize that while we were in a struggling third‐world country, filled with poverty and despair…the actions of those around me really weren’t all that “third-world”after all. No, in fact, they are rather akin to our own…even back in the land of freedom, plenty and prosperity (or at least what is prosperity in comparison with this.) Yes, even back in the homeland of the good old USA, it’s all about the “ME FIRST”mentality. And we have just as many reasons and a thousand excuses for why WE of ALL PEOPLE should be receiving the special treatment we deserve…FIRST!!
It could be, “I'm a doctor,”or “I'm a lawyer”…"I'm a celebrity,” or “I'm a high‐ranking official”…or “I can pay whatever is required, so treat me accordingly.” Or “I’ve made a large donation to your organization so I should receive extra perks.”Or on the flip side it could be, “I’m a struggling single mom, I’m a poor student,” or even… “I’m a missionary, I’m a conference president, I’m the head deacon,”or “I’m part of the leadership of such and such an organization...if anyone deserves special treatment, I do!” Status is such a huge thing…even if it’s negative status…but especially if it is “Religious status” and the list goes on and on and on…
In fact, even in Christ’s time…the same struggle was taking place…not just in the heathen mobs around him, or within the obvious pride of the pompous Pharisees, but among his very own disciples. “Who is going to sit next to Christ on the throne? It has to be ME…I deserve to be FIRST.”
Yet, how contrary to Christ whole nature and mentality this struggle is. In fact, it makes me wonder…If this is our mentality, are we truly surrendered to Christ, even now??
Christ has left us a very clear pattern and example…and yet we always seem to be looking for “exceptions”or reasons why WE should not have to follow it.
“Whosoever will be chief among you, let him be your servant: Even as the Son of man came not to be ministered unto, but to minister, and to give His life a ransom for many.” Matt 20:27‐28
“Let this mind be in you, which also was in Christ Jesus. Who being in the form of God, thought it not robbery to be equal with God: But made Himself of no reputation, and took upon Him the form of a servant…” Phil 2:5‐7
The FORM OF A SERVANT!!!!! Wow…what a concept! How many of us are seeking to pattern our lives after the “form of a servant”?? Can you just imagine the latest breaking news from Hollywood Boulevard, “Celebrity clash over who gets to pick up the trash and feed the homeless!” or "Celebrity does not want to accept Oscar award, but pushes for it to be given to another!" Or what about from our own comfortable church pews…“Conflict at Central SDA over who gets to wash everyone’s feet!”In fact, we could even make headline news from our own homes. “Family members fight over who gets to clean the house, wash the dishes, take out the trash, be last in line to eat…and on and on!”The above scenarios are so unheard of, they are comical. (Of course, if “true servant hood”was practiced as God ordained it, there would be no fighting either… it would be a team spirit of give and take and working together in unity and peace for the betterment of all involved!) And yet, how we struggle with this whole concept of “servant hood”as people and as Christians. In fact, sadly if we are acting the part of “servant”we often stumble over “pride in our service”and if not pride, then feelings of “martyrdom”or something else…
As I contemplate these concepts and our need of “true Servant’ spirit formed by a surrendered heart,” I’m reminded once again…“Not that we are sufficient of ourselves to think anything of ourselves, but our sufficiency is of God.”II Cor 3:5
Only GOD…HE ALONE can give us this HEART!!!!!
“What is man, that thou art mindful of Him…?” Heb 2:6
“For ye see your calling brethren, how that not many wise men after the flesh, not many mighty, not many noble, are called. But God hath chosen the foolish things of the world to confound the wise; and God hath chosen the weak things of the world to confound the things which are mighty. And the base things of the world, and the things which are despised, hath God chosen, yea and the things which are not, to bring to nought things that are: That no flesh should glory in his presence. But of Him are ye in Christ Jesus, who of God is made unto us wisdom, and righteousness, and sanctification, and redemption. That according as it is written, He that glorieth, let him glory in the Lord.”I Cor 1:26‐31
And Paul continues in the next chapter, with what I believe should be the summary and sole focus in all that we breath, live, and do:
“For I am determined not to know anything among you, save Jesus Christ, and him crucified.” I Cor 2:2
So simple, and yet so profound…yet I think this is the KEY to true “Servant hood”…the servant hood that Christ asked that we embrace.
For we are nothing apart from Christ, we can glory in nothing apart from Christ. But when we have Christ, we have everything…and through Christ, we can do what the carnal man cannot do. We can be a servant!! But the key is Christ!! Not I and Christ, or Christ and I, but CHRIST!!!
The following quote sums it up precisely I think, and gives all of us a convicting challenge.
“You may have left much to follow Christ…you may have believed on him, and worked for Him, and loved Him, and yet may not be like Him. (Ouch!! Really??) Allegiance you know, and confidence you know, but not yet union….There are two wills, two interests, two lives. You have not yet lost your own life that you may live only in His. Once it was I and not Christ; then it was I and Christ; perhaps now it is even Christ and I. But has it come yet to be Christ only, and not I at all?” The Christian’s Secret of a Happy Life, by Hannah Whitall Smith p. 156‐157
As I have once again experienced a few short weeks of service in Bangladesh, I am again reminded of the inadequacies and weakness of my flesh, the struggles of my will, the sin of my own heart…and my prayer for CHRIST and only CHRIST grows stronger.
Live out Thy life within me,
O Jesus, King of kings!
Be Thou Thyself the answer
to all my questionings;
Live out Thy life within me,
in all things have Thy way!
I, the transparent medium,
Thy glory to display.
The temple has been yielded,
And purified of sin;
Let Thy Shekinah glory
Now shine forth from within,
And all the earth keep silence,
The body henceforth be
Thy silent, gentle servant,
Moved only as by Thee.
“There is no limit to the usefulness of one who, by putting self aside, makes room for the working of the Holy Spirit upon his heart, and lives a life wholly consecrated to God.” Desire of Ages, p. 250
So my inspiration for today ends as it began…
“But he that is greatest among you
shall be your SERVANT!” Matt 23:11
May we learn to truly be…His Servants!
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Please break my heart...

"Please break my heart!!"
That doesn't sound like a good prayer to be praying, does it? No, not really from our world's perspective. But it has been my prayer recently!! My prayer to God...
A powerful video clip: The call to Serve
"By all that has given us advantage over another, be it education and refinement, nobility of character, Christian training, religious experience, we are in debt to those less favored and, so far as lies in our power, we are to minister unto them. If we are strong, we are to stay up the hands of the weak." Ministry of Healing page 105
"Perhaps if there were more of that intense distress for souls that leads to tears, we should more frequently see the results we desire. Sometimes it may be that while we are complaining of the hardness of the hearts of those we are seeking to benefit, the hardness of our own hearts and our feeble apprehension of the solemn reality of eternal things may be the true cause of our want of success." -Hudson Taylor
Sunday, September 13, 2009
~ Time with Fami-LEE and Friends up North ~
After helping host our first ARME BIBLE CAMP in Central CA (which I shared about below), I headed North with my Asian friend and twin Sue. Since we spent a mission trip in Korea together this summer (you can also read about that below) we have become permanently attached I think, a little like Siamese twins! (We have either talked or texted each other at least once every day since we came back from Korea!! Like I said, "Siamese twins." I think Sue is the "twin" I always dreamed of, but never had...truly my "Harmonious Joy.") She is overflowing with energy (relax Sue!) and loves people, but also is personable and down to earth. While a Speech Pathologist by training, she has a heart for serving and looking out for the underdog and those less fortunate. The more we get to know each other, the more we find in common...even to our shoe size. And our personalities have really clicked. We both thank God for allowing our paths to FINALLY cross. Sue has become a true friend, sister, and inspiration...and adds so much laughter to my days.
Actually, the whole Lee family (or "Fami-LEE" as I like to call them) has taken a very special place in my heart. I told them whether they like it or not, I am adopting them! I think they are still deciding IF they like that. Ha ha...) Anyway, I have been privileged to get a peek into their lives and who they are, and being in their home was such a blessing. Let me share a little below:
Jed (who was the director of our Korea team) and his wife Irene are also an incredible godly couple. He is an excellent teacher and enjoys giving Bible studies, mentoring young people, and sharing the Biblical message of Creation as well as many other inspirational Biblical insights. (I am already trying to book him more speaking engagements!) There's lots more I could say about Jed, but he's very humble and doesn't like my public appraisals, so suffice it to say, just as Sue has become my "Ssang-doong-Eee" (or twin), Jed has become my "Obba" or big brother. And we'll leave it at that!
Tuesday, September 08, 2009
Are you ready for the ARME???

Wednesday, August 12, 2009
Monday, August 10, 2009
Sunday, July 26, 2009
Korea Summer Camp - Updates
Monday, July 20, 2009
Korea - Here we come!!!
Sunday, July 05, 2009
A call to Anguish...
Saturday, July 04, 2009
The more I seek Him, the more I find...
Friday, July 03, 2009
Joys forever more...

Saturday, June 20, 2009
Where in the World is Melody???
I've had a few e-mails from concerned friends... "Where are you Melody? What's up with your life? Things have been kinda silent on your blog. Is everything ok?" And I just chuckle...
Everything is more than "ok." Yes, my life continues to be full and blessed!! (Just see pics above!!) The problem is, it is sooooo full and blessed, I've not had time to write about it. To catch the highlights of where I have been or what I've been up to...you have to be a friend on FACEBOOK!
Here's an overview from the last 6 weeks - Facebook Style :-)
May 3rd - Melody wants to GROW FAITH like potatoes!!! ;-) [Note - if you haven't watched the documentary, it is great! Not the movie, the DOCUMENTARY in the special feature section of the movie.]
May 4th - with a heavy heart, is reminded this earth is NOT our home...we're just passing through!! [Friend's child drowned!]
May 8th - Melody has seen AGAIN this week....His Strength is Perfect!!!
May 10th - I just called and wished BOTH my MOTHER'S a Happy mothers Day!! I am sooo blessed!!! [Still have warm memories of their visit here in TX this spring!!]
May 12th - Melody had to call a CODE BLUE tonight!!! [It was too late...his heart recovered, but his brain never did! He transferred to ICU and family pulled life support a few days later...soooo sad! I can't ask myself "If only" - God is in control...]
May 13th - Melody is sooo proud of her sister SANDRA....graduating and about to join our ranks of "REGISTERED NURSES"!!! [Sandra completed Nursing and we all celebrated in Oklahoma for her Nurse's pinning ceremony!]
May 14th - Time to mark your calenders and plan to attend our first ARMe Bible Camp!!! It's a conference you don't want to miss! It's gonna be AWESOME!!!! http://www.armebiblecamp.com/ [This is one of the ministry projects I've been working on this spring with a team of dedicated leaders. Our speakers will be Pastor Ivor Myers, Pastor Doug Batchelor, Pastor Stephen Bohr, Evangelist Emmaneul Baek, and Taj Pacleb! We are thrilled and know it will be an awesome conference!!]
May 16th - Melody is learning new things about Medical Evangelism from Mr. Fiedler, and enjoying time with OA family! [Mr. Fiedler was one of my favorite teachers in highschool, and I still enjoy listening to him share! He's gained quite a reputation for his knowledge in SDA church history.]
May 17th - Melody is hanging out at Ouachita Hills Campus in AR, with Tim and Sunny!! It is soooooo green here!! [Went over with them to Alistair Huongs graduation!]
May 18th - Melody is thankful for His GRACE...and energized for a wonderful new week!!
May 20th - Melody is having fun training in my REPLACEMENT at work! She's gonna be great!! [They've had me doing specialized "plastic surgery patient" care, so now that I am leaving, they wanted me to train in a replacement!]
May 21st - Melody is praying about WHAT TO DO next?! It's exciting walking by faith, because you never know what Great things God has in store around the next corner, and I'm approaching another corner... ;-)
May 22nd - KOREA - here I come!!! (God has opened the doors for me to work with a mission team doing child/youth evangelism for a couple weeks this summer! I'm excited!)
May 26th - Melody is on a treadmill that keeps going FASTER!!!! Help.....stop this thing!!! ;-)
May 27th - Melody is seeing how long she can burn the candle at both ends and still LIVE! ;-) Worked til midnight, and haven't been to bed yet...leave for airport in a hour!! (You're RIGHT, I am nuts!!!)
May 30th - had a great evening with old Loma Linda friends, and thankful for Sabbath tomorrow!!! [Traveled to CA for Dave/Vanessa wedding weekend, and then to help Tim and Sunny drive to Ohio!]
May 31st - Melody is TIRED...but enjoying vacation with friends. Tomorrow is the BIG DAY for Dave and Vanessa!!!! Congratulations guys!!!!! [See slideshow and post below for more glimpse of this beautiful occasion!]
June 1st - is helping Tim and Sunny move to Ohio!!! I even get to help drive the big 26 foot truck....YEAH!!!!
June 2nd - 1:15 am - is having fun reading Tim and Deb's status updates...we are all on our computers (well 4 out of 6 of us) and we are all crashing after a long day!!! I drove the big 26 foot Penske all afternoon! Wooohoooo!!!! [Written from Flagstaff AZ]
June 1st - 8am - Grand Canyon HERE WE COME!!!! This is not my first time, but it's fun to be with everyone else when it is their FIRST!! ;-)
June 3rd - drove the big truck ALL the way from CA to OK (all but the first 4 hours - my daddy would be sooo proud of me!) Praising the Lord to get it here safely...and excited to be having Dad and Mom Holland join our travel crew for our last LONG day of driving to OH!!
June 5th - It's 1:18 AM....and we arrived safely to Sunny and Tim's new home in Ohio!! We've set up our air mattresses, and tomorrow will unload the truck! Praising the Lord for safe travels!!!! ;-) (PS: I am going to miss driving that BIG truck...it was a blast!!!)
June 5th - 6pm - Truck unloaded, food for Sabbath ready, rooms in house are in progress...still can't decide where to put mirror! (It's a looong story!!) We are all pooped!! Praise the Lord for a day of rest!!!
June 7th - Got to take a quick trip to Illinois and visit Carolyn and 3ABN!! Enjoyed touring the sets and seeing more behind the scenes!
June 8th - Melody has enjoyed the time with Tim/Sunny and family and is heading back to TX to finish her contract!! Then on to NEW ADVENTURES...
June 9th - Melody missed both flights out of Ohio today...first one was over-booked, second one had mechanical problems!!! (So....sigh....I got a free round trip ticket and get to hang out with family for 1 more day...minus all my luggage!!) [During this extra day, we toured the National Airforce Museum in Dayton. Even toured all the planes that the President - as recent as Clinton (yeah!) have ridden in!]
June 11th - I did NOT make it to my destination airport but am very glad to be ALIVE!! Wildest flight of my life! (Now I've got to figure out how to get to Killeen as I'm not ready to fly again right now!!) [This flight, obviously also had problems, due to weather! It's a long story I will write out soon, hopefully! Or maybe you can read about it in the next SetApartGirl online magazine!]
June 12th - The storms are still raging, but I am back in TX safe.....FINALLY!!! And I'm thankful for human guardian angels! [God sent someone to give me a ride from Abilene (where we had our emergency landing) all the way to Killeen! What a huge blessing!]
June 13th - Melody is listentening to: "My redeemer is faithful and true....everything He has said He will do, and every morning His mercies are new, my redeemer is faithful and true..." (I LOVE IT!!!!!)
June 15th - Melody can't go to sleep because she's reading the new SETAPARTGIRL online magazine!!! Wow...it's amazing how all our articles fit so perfectly together!!! I am sooo inspired!! http://www.setapartgirl.com/
June 17th - Melody is LOVING the life God has given her!!!!!
June 18th - Melody just finished a 60 hour work-week (5 twelve hour shifts in a row!! Wow! I am dead tired!!!)
June 19th - Melody is taking some extra time SET-APART (from FB) for her greatest LOVE, Jesus Christ!! "Oh taste and see that the Lord is good! Blessed is the [woman] that trusteth in Him. O fear the Lord ye his saints, for there is no want to them that fear Him!" Ps 34:8-9
Yep, just acknowledging what has been obvious to everyone else...I've been on the treadmill too long, and need a break from it all. Don't get me wrong...I love FB, and I'll be back, but it can take up precious time, and since time is very limited right now as I am working soooo hard to finish up this contract and get ready for my next adventures, I decided I'd take a step back from it for a bit! Thus...my final and most recent status update...Besides, now that I'm off Facebook for a bit...I can actually take time to update my blog!! Yeah!
So...you see, it's been a full 6 weeks!!! ;-) All I can say is, through it all...God is good! All the time, God is good!!!
Friday, June 19, 2009
And they lived...Happily Ever After!!
*Thanks Wanda, for the Great photos!!
To see the professional slideshow - click here Rowena Curtis Photography
In tribute to Dave and Vanessa...
Last summer it was my sister Sunny's big day...this summer it was Vanessa's!!
From the very beginning I've enjoyed watching Vanessa and Dave's love blossom (it all started in the California poppy fields). And when Dave finally asked Vanessa to be his wife...well, you can just imagine the excitement for us all!! Then there were the trips to "David's Bridal" (how ironic is that), and trips to more wedding stores. What a fun time of life!!
Well, this past May 31st, they finally tied the knot...in the most beautiful and sacred way I think I have ever seen! I knew Vanessa was working like crazy trying to iron out all the details...but since I've been away in Texas this spring, I had no idea...just how many details. Once the big weekend came, it was evident...there was much thought, prayer, and planning in this wedding.
Of course, the setting was scenic, as you can see by the pictures. But more than a beautiful scene, and a lovely bride and groom, was the emphasis they put on God and His glory and honor. It was a beautiful tribute to a marvelous Creator...the author of true romance! I was inspired and impressed...and very blessed.
So Vanessa, you did good...on your man, on your day, and most importantly...on making a memory that ultimately glorified God!! May the rest of your love story be as beautiful as the beginning...and grow more beautiful through the years!!
And don't ever forget...your girlfriends will always love you!!
Sunday, June 14, 2009
Our prayers...God's answer...
- We pray for patience, and our Father sends those who tax us to the utmost; for "tribulation worketh patience."
- We pray for submission, and God sends sufferings; for "we learn obediently by the things we suffer."
- We pray for unselfishness, and God gives us opportunities to sacrifice ourselves by thinking on the things of others, and by laying down our lives for the brethren.
- We pray for strength and humility, and some messenger of Satan torments us until we lie in the dust crying for its removal.
- We pray, "Lord increase our faith," and money takes wings; or the children are alarmingly ill; or a servant comes who is careless, extravagant, untidy or slow, or some hitherto unknown trial calls for an increase of faith along a line where we have not needed to exercise much faith before.
- We pray for the Lamb-like life, and are given a portion of lowly service, or we are injured and must seek no redress; for "He was led as a lamb to the slaughter...and opened not his mouth."
- We pray for gentleness, and there comes a perfect storm of temptation to harshness and irritability.
- We pray for quietness, and every nerve is strung to the utmost tension, so that looking to Him we may learn that when He giveth quietness, no one can make trouble.
- We pray for love, and God sends peculiar suffering and puts us with apparently unlovely people, and lets them say things which rasp the nerves and lacerate the heart; for love suffereth long and is kind, love is not impolite, love is not provoked. Love beareth all things, believeth, hopeth and endureth. Love never faileth.
- We pray for likeness to Jesus, and the answer is, "I have chosen thee in the furnance of affliction." "Can thine heart endure, or can thine hands be strong."
Saturday, May 02, 2009
You're NOT GUILTY anymore...
Friday, May 01, 2009
Announcing the GREAT THINGS of THIS month of MAY!!!
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Sharing the Colors of Spring with those I love...
Flowers have always been a favorite of mine...in fact, as long as I can remember, I've always been "Mom's lil flower girl" picking everything I found, and revealing in its beauty. So it is even today. Every place I travel, I am always looking for the local beauties and the life and color they display. Last spring it was the California poppy fields and the famous Southern CA Daffodil Hill which I just heard will be closing to the public after this season.
Well, this year my discovery has been the Texas bluebonnets and Indian Paintbrush. (Not hard to spot in spring!) And I have been extra spoiled in the fact that My Mom and brother from Arkansas came to visit, and my Mom Holland from Oklahoma also came to visit and enjoy the beauty with me. Below are a few of my favorite pics from our time together!!
Friday, April 24, 2009
Friday, April 03, 2009
"Banana's 4 Bangladesh" is launched...
Monday, March 30, 2009
Nursing can be very depressing sometimes though...you see the sickest of society, in times and conditions that are less than flattering, and in circumstances that are often very grim. Pain, discouragement, despair, and hopelessness are all around you...and so is frustration, anger, complaining, and sometimes downright rudeness from those who haven't learned how to cope with their lot in life. As one quote goes, "If your day is going wrong, just pass it along to someone else!" And so, although trying to mend the wounds, soothe the fears, and bring some hope to my patients and their days, I still often get mistreated and lashed out at.
But then again, should I complain....I am certainly not the first to walk this path!
"But he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon him; and with his stripes we are healed." Isa 53:5
"Don't let yourself care too much! You have to be tough so things don't effect you." I was once cautioned by an older wiser nurse. "After all, death and pain are all around you....constantly!! You can't cry every time a patient dies (I usually do), you can't stop and wonder what it must feel like to have just received such dreadful news (I wonder), you can't dry every tear they shed (I still try)....you just can't let yourself care!"
Yet...with all that admonition, it hasn't changed me much....because I can't help it...I still care!!
Oh, I've learned how to have more professional composure, I've learned how to pick up and go on, I've learned how to know when to share and when to be silent...but I still care! I just can't help it! I pray that somehow, while they may be losing their opportunities for health in this life, that they'll somehow find hope for the next life to come!
Some of my patients I'm able to share Christ with in words, but most aren't ready...so I just share about Him in my actions, for they say, "Actions speak louder than words!" Yet I still pray for and care for each one!
There's a couple patients that have impacted my life in a more dramatic way these last few weeks.
Let's start with Kyle* - a bronzed 17 year old, athletic, good looking and obviously very talented young man with his whole life ahead of him. However, he didn't have a whole lot of respect for his parents or for the important things of life. He was just having fun!! Then one day this past weekend, while in the fast lane speeding with friends, their vehicle rolled. Now he's a paraplegic, for life!! And with the desperateness of a hurting child he clings to his parents for support. He wouldn't even allow me to give him his meds.... "Mom - will you give me my pills?" His brother gives him hugs, and when his dad leaves he hollers, "I love you!" as if it may be his last.
How many young people today are going to have to roll their cars in the fast lane of life, before they wake up to the reality of the value of life...the value of their family, the value of health and arms and legs that move?? It's sooo sad....but I am afraid, it will be many more.
Then there's Miss Becky*, a sweet 49 year old abdominoplasty and breast augmentation patient. Desperate to be more beautiful and reverse the signs of age, she's paid thousands to have a professional "tummy tuck" and "breast enlargement" and liposuction job. Yet it is obvious that she does not know God and her life will continue to be empty and shallow...even if in a more beautiful form.
When will she discover that true beauty is not made up of a sleek trim frame, or alluring curves, but rather it comes from having a living relationship with Jesus Christ....in the heart...a meek and quiet spirit, a humble servants heart, an attitude of love and gratefulness, a giving spirit?
Then there is Mrs. Lindsey* - a patient that has Congestive Heart Failure and is forced to wear oxygen everywhere she goes. She's in the hospital for Pacemaker repair, but hopes to be home soon. When we meet and she learns about my travels and that I don't even have my own place, but am staying with friends, she sweetly offers, "Well if you ever need a place to live when you are here, you can come live with me?!" I think she is joking, but the more she talks, I realize, this lady is serious. She doesn't know me from Adam...or should I say, Eve...yet she has bonded with me and is inviting me to come share her home!! What a giving spirit.
While no longer beautiful in outward form, there is a radiance and life in her eyes that even 72 years have not dimmed.
Then there's Mr. Morris* - an elderly man that was happily enjoying his retirement years when suddenly he had a stroke, and now he can only move one half of his body. He's sooo large he is difficult to turn, and he is getting bed sores. When I approach him and ask how he's doing, he whispers "Horrible." With some more prodding about where it is "horrible," he finally points to his head... "Up here it is horrible!" Ahhh...now I understand. I take his hand gently in mine. "It must be tough lying here feeling like there's nothing you can do, huh?" I softly begin. Tears come to his eyes as he nods. We talk some more. His body may be crippled, but there's obviously nothing wrong with this 80 year old man's mind. Finally I ask, "Do you know Jesus?" he shakes his head. I tell him about my story and how Jesus has changed my life. Then I softly ask, "Would you like to know Jesus? Would you like to make things right with him?" His whole body shakes uncontrollably! He cannot speak, he only cries...Finally he says, "Yes..." And I help him pray.
It may be close to the end for Mr. Morris...yet, it's still not too late to make things right! As long as there is life, it never is...
Then there's Mr. Henry* - Diagnosed with metastatic bone cancer, he barely gets around and lives in pain. His family has signed the DNR papers and stand beside him in support. We do all we can to keep him comfortable. But one evening, with an extra burst of energy he says he has to go to the bathroom. A bedpan will not do, he wants to walk there himself. Two people steady him as walks to the commode with his oxygen line in tow. Once there it is evident that he's not getting back to bed without major assistance. He is collapsing! Three of us literally drag him back to his bed and he dies in our arms along the way. For Mr. Henry there is no more chances. He will never see another day. While we knew his death was coming, it is so sudden and unexpected. All the nurses break down...even our CNA is crying.
And so our patients come, and so our patients go...some to their rest, some to rehab, and some to what they hope will be a improved life! But each one impacts me...and no matter the pain, I am determined to not grow hardened to it all!
If Jesus heart still breaks for our pain...and has for thousands of years now...why do we consider it such a sacrifice to carry "his cross" for just a few years...
"For we know that the whole creation groaneth and travaileth in pain together until now." Rom 8:22
And so... "Jesus [too] wept..." John 11:35
No, I will not just turn and walk away! I am determined, I will continue to reach out and CARE....
*Names and some circumstances changed to protect identities.
Friday, March 06, 2009
Radical Feminity...dusting off the woman of Proverbs 31!
As women, in the modern world and church, we are fast loosing sight of the true spirit of femininity and passions that God has called us to uphold. In place of seeking to become the woman of Proverbs 31, we have been seeking to become the independent self-sufficient, new super-women of the modern age (aka "Martha Stewart"), cut and dried with clothes and make-up in place...a batch of cookies in the oven...an agenda that would make the Queen of England blush, and a calender of activities that would make our grandparents turn over in their graves. We try to do all the right things, have the right looks, go the right places, date the right guys, and even show our face in just the right "good Samaritan activities"... but more than not, it has become all about us!Thursday, February 26, 2009
God continues to answer prayer...from California to Texas!!
Yes, as most of you know, I've spent most of the last 6-7 months doing various ministry projects and working with my Advent Hope ministry team in Loma Linda, CA: Very fulfilled, lots of adventures, but no job and no money! Since the economy has gotten tighter, getting another "Travel Nursing job" has become more difficult than I imagined. I started praying for another job back in November...but even after several months, there was no hope on the horizon. So.....I just kept doing the daily tasks and projects that I knew God was calling me to do, and amazingly, He supplied my needs and kept taking care of me. (Even to paying for over $600 in mechanical problems that I've had with my car the last two months! I didn't have the cash, but He always sent it right when I needed it.)
Well, at the last minute, towards the end of January (just after I'd invited Amanda to come stay with me for a couple weeks) I got a call that my Nursing Agency had an opportunity for me to go work in Texas for a few months! "Texas!?" I exclaimed... "Would God lead me back to Texas?? I'm all settled here in Loma Linda." Of course I forgot that I had also been praying for some time that He'd help me move OUT of Loma Linda and start to get out of the big city environment of Southern California..... "Maybe this is His way of doing that?" I mused.
I was deep into editing "Set-Apart Life" sessions for the Ludy's, preparing for Amanda to come, and now....NOW, I had to start thinking about packing for Texas!!
Not long after, as you've seen in the previous posts....Amanda came to visit, and what a great time we had. But I was also beginning to really feel the pressure. As she and I swamped our bodies with fresh fruits and veggies, watched Nedley lectures, and studied the Bible, after she went to bed, I stayed up nights trying to get my first round of edits completed on the Ludy videos, and began to mentally plan and pack for my soon coming move to Texas. I would have to leave for TX only 2 days after Amanda went home....that didn't give me hardly ANY time!!!!
My friend Season was preparing for her 26 mile Marathon in Huntington Beach and I felt like I was preparing for the mental marathon of the decade!! I didn't think I could do it...it all seemed sooo impossible, so fast, so last minute, so overwhelming. But one day at a time, one night at a time, with God by my side and lots and lots of prayer....I made it through!
Finally....tearfully....after Celebrating Season's 26 mile Marathon Victory, my early birthday, and many answered prayers with Amanda, I said goodbye to my Loma Linda friends and I hit the road....headed over 2,000 miles for Texas....all alone in my Honda car, packed to the gills! (I was sooo tight on space, I even packed food around my spare tire, and prayed the whole way I wouldn't have a flat!) I didn't try to make the trip in one day though...I stopped the first night in AZ to visit my childhood best friend Heather and her family. Then I spent Sabbath in OK with my Holland family. Grandma Hiner was in the hospital and struggling with her health, so it was kinda sad. Mom and Dad also made me a cake and brought it to the hospital where we were congregated to be with Grandma. But they couldn't light the candles for fear they'd set off the sprinkler system in the whole hospital....so they just sang, and I didn't get to make my wishes. (I thought it might have been kinda fun to set the sprinklers off, but no one else thought so!)
Then the next day, on my actual birthday, I headed for Temple TX. (It's kinda funny, because when I started travel nursing, three years ago, my first day as a travel nurse was on my birthday, and it was on a job in East Texas!!)
All the drive from California to Oklahoma, I had either listened to sermons, music, or prayed. One particular prayer was for a place to stay. "God, I've been soooooo busy I haven't had time to even look for a place to live in Texas! I don't have the slightest idea even where to begin!? So far when I've gone to my nursing jobs you've always provided the perfect place to stay with a church family or friends....but I don't know anyone in Temple, TX....could you find someone for me again??" It was a big prayer of faith. And to make it bigger, I added "And God...If possible, could you provide a furnished apartment, separate from someone's home so I wont be in their way...in the country a bit, and at a low price so I can save as much possible for paying my bills?"
A few hundred more miles down the road I would pray again, "I know this may seem like a selfish request, because beggars can't be choosers they say, but please....a furnished apartment....surely you know of someone down there who has one available they would let me rent? I know this is a small thing for you, and you delight to have us share the desires of our hearts." (God was smiling upon me I know and I can just imagine Him thinking.... "Oh Melody, how I am going to bless you! Just you wait...")
But time went on and I knew and heard nothing. My mom had tried to contact some friends she knew in the area, but no word. Then Sunday morning came and I was to leave Oklahoma and make the final leg of my journey to Texas. I still didn't know where I was to stay. I resigned myself to the fact that I would probably just need to rent a motel.
Right before I left home, I looked on the Internet for church phone numbers and stumbled across one, not only the church number but also the Pastor's number. When I called, the Pastor pleasantly answered. I told him I was a "Travel Nurse" looking for suggestions on a economical place to rent or stay, was single, and wanted to be close to a church family, and did he know of anyone? (I didn't tell him what I'd asked God for.) Well, he and his wife talked things over and they called me back. "We have an apartment, fully furnished," he said. "We built it for our daughter, but she doesn't live with us anymore. It's open right now. We're a ways out in the country, so it may be farther then you care to drive, but you can use it if you want, and we'll even give you a good deal on rent!" I was speechless....it sounded exactly like what I'd been praying for. Privacy, furnishings, in the country, economical....I could hardly dare believe. They gave me directions and told me I could go ahead and come that night.
Once I got on the road, I had another surprise. Another lady called me....the Pastor had given her my name and number and she also wanted to welcome me to Temple and help in anyway she could. It turned out we'd met about 6 years before, and while I hadn't stayed in touch, she and my mom were still friends. When I did arrive in Temple, she and her husband met me and escorted me out to meet the Pastor. They told me I could come live with them in their home if I wanted, as well! I was speechless at the love and welcome. However, when I got to Pastor Harbour and his wife's home, I knew that....at least for now....this was the Oasis I had prayed for and it was exactly what I needed!
How could God be sooo good and answer my prayer sooo specifically!!!! My heart was aglow and my mind filled with amazement. I don't deserve such tender love!!
Yes, God is good, and treats us better than we deserve. That first night back in Texas, as the sun set on yet another birthday, I sunk into a warm comfortable ready-made bed, and my heart danced with happiness. I hadn't needed to rent a motel after all. And I had found some more loving Christian friends. I would miss my old ones from California, but for now I had found my resting place...and my marathon...at least for now, was finally over!!
Follow Up Notes:
Here I am...three weeks later...still getting into my routine, but still glowing with amazement at how God always provides. I miss my roomates dearly, and find it strange to have a room (much less a apartment) all to myself, but the refreshment of having time alone with God has been a blessing from Heaven.
Work is fast-paced and rough at times, but going well. I thought I was going to be working 3p-3a (a very difficult grave-yard schedule), but without my asking, they changed me to 11a-11p!! The perfect schedule. "Before you call, I will answer...before you speak, I will hear!" Again, God knew what I needed!
The first four hours of my shift they usually have me make rounds on all the patients, and help the nurses with admissions and various needs. I love it!! I've already gotten to talk to many patients about Christ, pray with people when I saw a need, and help one man even learn how He can make peace with God before He dies. (He cried and cried!)The rest of the shift I have my own patient load and get to juggle all their needs, plus try to chart and grab a lunch/supper break somewhere.
My first day on the floor I actually met a Nurse who was a former SDA who hadn't been to church in years. I told her about the church here in Temple and that it was a really friendly church and she should come visit. Then I added under my breath, "I haven't been there yet, but if you come to visit, I'll be friendly!" She laughed. :-) I am still praying that she will come!
The local church has turned out to be friendly and has welcomed me with open arms. I look forward to making better friends and being involved. They put on a beautiful Valentines Banquet, and although I was just barely here, they invited me to attend....an opportunity I would never miss as I love Valentines.
The Pastor and his wife are wonderful Christ centered, Bible centered people, and we've been having an incredible time getting acquainted. We're on the same wave-length, and have a lot in common, so I look forward to working with them. Carla and her husband (my old friends) have also been a blessing, showing me around and giving me rides in their "Arctic Cat" on their country property. They just exude the love of Christ to everyone.
It's nice to be only a few hours drive away (in contrast to 2 days drive away) from both my families (Arkansas and Oklahoma) and I plan to visit them both as much as I can.
Grandma Hiner continues to struggle with her health. She's been in the hospital for 2 weeks, come home, gone back to the hospital and come home again. She has CHF and her heart is slowly failing. We are praying that a recent surgery will help her get back on top again. Please join me in this prayer.
Oklahoma Academy has asked me to help with a Week of Prayer for their students, so I've been organizing materials together for that. Much of this I've already put together for Advent Hope. OA's also asked me to help with filming a "Sanctuary Concert" they are doing in Oregon this spring with the life size model of the Messiah's Mansion. Pray that God will bless this endeavor.
Amanda is continuing to study the Bible and grow and flourish. She's hitting all the deep Bible doctrine topics hard....I tell her sometimes, "You don't have to worry about that right now...just focus on your walk with God!" But she's got a sharp mind and is willing to dig, and I know God will continue to bless her for it.
I'm still not done with the Ludy videos.....in fact, I haven't touched the project since I left CA, I've been sooo busy!! But with God's help, I pray to get back on track with this soon. They have been soo gracious and understanding. On an extra special note, Leslie asked me to help write for her online girl's magazine, read by young women all around the world. My first article "My Perfect Valentine" went in this February issue.
And my newest big ministry project is an exciting ministry called "ArMe Bible Camp Ministries" that some friends and I are developing. The name is meant to represent our need to be equipped, trained, and "armed" with the Word of God for all battlefield fronts of life! This is still just getting off the ground, but we're hoping to host our first training camp this summer. The retreats will be intensive training trageted at helping youth and young adults with specific areas of the Christian walk. While we hope to host "Training camps" in a number of Spiritual disciplines and topics, our first camp will focus on teaching people how to study the Bible and really get into the Word for themselves. I'll share more details as things come into place, but please pray for this upcoming venture!!! We're really excited about it!!
In closing, and on a humerous note...since I was just talking about being "armed".....while I'm living in a rural area in the country (about 30 mins from my work) there's no need to be afraid of anything. Only a few miles away lies one of the biggest military bases in the whole United States....Fort Hood, Kileen TX. (I had no clue!!) There are army helicopters flying overhead, or men in uniform going through the check-out lines with me when I buy groceries....so I am well protected. (Smile smile!) But even if I wasn't....I wouldn't worry....I'm willing to go where-ever my Lord leads me, for when He leads, I know He will provide, and as long as I wear His armor, I know I have nothing to fear. (Eph 6)
A friend once shared this quote.
"How come a commission by an earthly king is considered an honor when a commission by our Heavenly King is considered a Sacrifice?"
Hmmm....goood question!! I pray that however God commissions me, or however He answers my prayers or does not answer my prayers, I will consider living in His "Special Service" an honor, not a sacrifice!!
Monday, February 02, 2009
God is soooo good....
Sunday, January 25, 2009
Another Miracle from God...let me introduce you to Amanda!!
Friday, January 23, 2009
Be careful what you Pray for, because you might just get it!!
Wow....where do I even begin....my cup runneth over!
This month has been packed....with answered prayers and overflowing blessings! Let me share just a few:
- Spent the first weekend of January at another powerful "Set-Apart Life Discipleship Retreat" in Colorado with the Ludys. (This is my 6th retreat with them!!) I was a student, but also filmed the entire 8 part series for them, which we will soon have available on DVD! I've been editing for hours, and still have hours to go, but it will be soooo worth it! (It's powerful, so let me know if you want copies!!!)
- Was contacted by a gal I haven't heard from in months (had met by "Divine Appointment" in the mountains this past summer - read the story from my previous blog post if you haven't!) and she asked if I would be a "spiritual mentor" for her and help her with some spiritual and health issues she was struggling with. I was delighted, and knew that God was orchestrating another "Divine Appointment" in our lives together. As we discussed her life and situation further, I felt convicted to invite her to come stay with me for a couple weeks so I could help guide her in a whole lifestyle change program. (I keep praying that God will bring the people to my door that He wants me to "love and reach.") Well, she felt convicted to come....so WALAAA....2 weeks later (and one day after my Peruvian roommate left for a 3 week visit to Michigan) Amanda has moved in! The enemy has really attempted to destroy her life over the last 8 years, but God has a purpose and plan for Amanda and He has slowly been wooing her back to himself. It's been sooo exciting and beautiful seeing how her heart is opening more and more....and the changes she is making. Who knows, she may even turn into a "Vegan Vegetarian" after this experience!! I have a feeling that 2 weeks if not going to be enough time to fit in everything I want to show her! (Please keep us in prayer, that the enemy will not derail the plans God has in place for her!)
- Have had car problems, or this struggle or that as finances have been low lately....but I'm overwhelmed, because just in the nic of time, God has continued to pay the bills, just when I needed most! I have been speechless at times! God is soo good! I can testify more and more of that every day!
- Had another beautiful evening of prayer with Advent Hope friends - Praising God and interceding! I can really feel God's presence and can't wait for this time together with friends!
- Have been praying that if God wants me to work, He will supply the job.....finally a Travel job opened up in TX....and they just happen to need me to start Feb 9th. (Right after Amanda will leave! Perfect timing....God must have planned!) So have frantically been seeking to get all the paperwork together and tie up loose ends here in Loma Linda with everything I am involved in. (Texas wasn't where I thought of going....but I know God has a plan since He opened the doors! But I'm not saying goodbye to Loma Linda forever....I'll be back, after 13 weeks!)
- Also, this last month God has opened several new exciting ministry opportunities....Can't share specifics for now, but stay tuned. It's exciting!!
God continues to bless and amaze me in a thousand ways. Sometimes I feel like I'm on a roller coaster that is going way too fast, and there is no way I will ever stay on....yet I've come to realize more and more.... "Of my own self, I cannot do anything truly worthwhile...it's only through God's strength and power." And so the more I surrender to Him, and lean upon Him, the more I know that truly.....even if headed through life on the "Speed Boat"....I'll be ok, because He is in charge....and the destination is Heaven. And the faster I get there, the happier I will be!! From God waking me up every morning, exactly on que, to supplying my little and large needs, and even filling the desires of my heart....I couldn't ask for a better companion, a better guide, a better friend, or a better King. I love the life He has given me, and most of all....I love Him!!!
"Thank you God for all you are doing in my life! I am speechless....and overwhelmed, but soo utterly thankful!!! I love you...teach me to love you more.... Amen!"
Monday, January 05, 2009
What was personally impacting to me though (besides the actual prayer time) was the fact that a couple members of the group (people I did not really know) had been praying for just such a event. One girl (not a SDA) had been praying about what to do New Year's Eve, and didn't really want to attend any local parties, yet she didn't know where to go. As she was reading her Bible, God impressed upon her mind that she needed to go to "Melodys." But she didn't know a Melody and so told God, "That's not one of the options!" Later she felt the same conviction again!! She still didn't know what to think though, and just brushed the thoughts aside. Then a friend told her about our group. She was sooo excited and came, but she did not realize my name was "Melody" until 30 minutes into the evening, when someone called my name. She then excitedly pulled me aside.... "Your name is Melody??" she asked increduiously??? "Yes! Why?" I replied. "Because God told me to come to Melodys for New Years Eve, but I didn't realize that was your name when I came!" I got goose bumps as she talked....I couldn't believe it! I mean, I know that God knows my name....but does He seriously, honestly, really KNOW MY NAME????
Yes, of course....He knows my name, and yours too....and all the details of every aspect of each of our lives!! God is soo incredible!! All He longs for is us to turn to Him....and surrender....and He will lead and bless in ways never thought possible!
The evening was such an inspiration and blessing to so many of us, that we plan to continue this beautiful time, on a more regular basis....and I am excited, because we need it sooo desperately!! I think God knows we need it too...and maybe He's calling your name too...to be a part of a prayer movement like never before!!













