While it was hard to be away from family this year, I have to say, this was a really GREAT 4th of July!

Started off the day bright and early...as usual! Read some in Psalms and the Great Controversary, and reviewd another session of the "Set-Apart" life series! Wow!!! What a blessing! Every time I hear it, I am inspired more about the vastness of God's intent in our lives!

When it got light enough to see, I took off on a 2 mile walk/hike with my verse pack and cell phone. However, it was the cell phone that ended up getting most of my attention as my mom and I talked for a long while! (It's no fun to go walking alone though, so I'm thankful she's always there to keep me company when I need!) When I got back Alisha was still sleeping, so I pounced on her and told her it was TIME to greet the sunshine! (Thank goodness she's a good sport with my teasing ways!) So I succeeded in dragging her out of bed and pulling her down the street for a few minutes of sunshine to start the day! (As I've learned, one of the best things for someone in depression to do is get some good sunlight at the beginning of their day!)

Then it was off to TJ and Maryann's for a scrumptious waffle breakfast!!! We had fun coming up with creative toppings for our waffles, but I think TJ beat us all! Let's see here....peanut butter, syrup, apple sauce, yogurt, bananas, strawberries, and two different kinds of nuts! Wow!! After we got breakfast cleaned up, I put on the old video series by Eric and Leslie, "Preparing for an Amazing Love Story." While I've watched the testimony countless times over the years, I hadn't had a chance to show it to Alisha yet, and so wanted her to see it. While it shares the incredible ways that God worked in Eric and Leslie's love story, more than that, it carries with it a powerful call to even deeper surrender to God.....in every area of one's life! And I knew it would be a real blessing to Alisha! It was......at the end, she was crying....and told me that she wanted to surrender more to God, but didn't know how! She and Maryann and I ended up having quite a little talk and cry together as we prayed with and for Alisha and the new changes that she is seeking to make.....and that God would truly make Himself real to her!

[As an update (as I don't think I've posted this yet), Alisha has decided to move to FL with her brother and a friend.....so she will be leaving this area and my home this next week! So, lots of changes are in progress and our time together is fast drawing to a close. Staying with me was just to be a launching pad into a new start, so I think it's good that she's getting away from the influences here that keep trying to pull her back down and moving on with positive growth. Yet, I'm still scared to see her go and wondering if she will have the strength to hold on to what she's been learning!!!! I know I'm not really a mother yet, however in a small way, I feel that I can relate. As one quote goes, "The decision to have children is the decision to have your heart walking around outside your body for the rest of your life!" And that's about how I feel right now! ;-) Yes, a piece of my heart.....and lots of my prayers will go with Alisha!! ]

After we watched the video testimony and I helped Maryann make Potatoe salad, we left and went home to get ready for the big picnic! We had invited a group of our friends over for a late lunch and social in the nice air-conditioned environment of our home. (Since it is massively hot outside these days and not long and everyone begins to wilt!) I had done most of my cooking on Tuesday, so besides decorating my FLAG cake and getting things organized, it wasn't a big deal. Maryann came and helped make things festive by making a colorful banner. And soon the friends began to arrive! Sunny never did make it home as she was working ER and evidently there were lots of accidents yesterday! But besides that, we were all here and had a blast!

In the evening we headed over to Redlands with TJ and Maryann and Daryl and Joy to find a spot to watch the fireworks. To pass time, we talked, played keep away with a cool ball that Daryl had brought, and watched some sky divers that were playing in the sky! This was the first night of the "Global Rain" event that I have missed, but I wanted to really make this a special 4th of July for Alisha (as her others have not been good memories!). And so it was really rewarding to me when later on in the evening, as the fireworks exploded over head, Alisha cuddled up next to me as she told me how special the day had been for her. "You know what we're doing right now, Mel..." she began with simple childlike wonder. "Sitting on a blanket in a park watching fireworks, in peace...kinda like a family...this is something I've only seen happen in movies...I can't believe it's actually happening to me!!! This has been sooooo awesome, Mel! Thank you!" I hugged her and in the process almost had tears come again to my eyes! There's nothing sooo rewarding I don't think, as knowing that you are brightening someone's day and making a real difference in their life! I just pray that God would give me strength to do this even more...in ways that will really count for eternity!

When you think of what God has done for you, how can you not try to share that with others??? And yet how often do we, myself included, get buried in our own little selfish worlds....what do I want to wear, where do I want to go, what do I want to do, who do I want to spend time with...what can I do that will make ME feel better???? When in actuality, our life isn't to be about "US" anyway.....but about others....about being Jesus hands, Jesus feet, Jesus touch...Jesus voice!

The other night for one of our "Global Rain" meetings, the topic was "A Burden for Souls" or more appropriately, as the prayer leader put it, "A Passion for Souls." We read a bunch of really inspiring, eye-opening quotes, but here's just a couple.

"There are many who need the ministration of loving Christian hearts. Many have gone down to ruin who might have been saved, if their neighbors, common men and women, had put forth personal effort for them. Many are waiting to be personally addressed. In the very family, the neighborhood, the town in which we live, there is work for us to do as missionaries for Christ. If we are Christians, this work will be our delight. No sooner is one converted than there is born within him a desire to make known to others what a precious friend he has found in Jesus. The saving and sanctifying truth cannot be shut up in his heart." Desire of Ages pg 141

"The Savior's commission to the disciples included all the believers. It includes all believers in Christ to the end of time. It is a fatal mistake to suppose that the work of saving souls depends alone on the ordained minister. All to whom the heavenly inspiration has come are put in trust with the gospel...whatever one's calling in life, his first interest should be to win souls for Christ." Desire of Ages pg 822

"The transforming power of Christ's grace molds the one who gives himself to God's service. Imbued with the Spirit of the Redeemer, he is ready to deny self, ready to take up the cross, ready to make any sacrifice for the Master. No longer can he be indifferent to the souls that are perishing around him. He is lifted aboved self-serving. He has been created anew in Christ, and self serving has no place in his life. He realizes that every part of his being belongs to Christ, who has redeemed him from the slavery of sin; that every moment of his future has been bought with the precious life-blood of God's only begotten Son." Lift Him Up, pg 58

Sombering words...and thinking about it all, I am overwhelmed with the inadequacy of my own life and outreach/work for the saving of those around me! Thankfully, God promises to give us the love, and give us the wisdom, and give us the strength for whatever He requires, so I can look to Him in Hope!!

Sooo.....in closing, while this was a most wonderful 4th of July, it's reminded me a deeper way how priviledged I am, and because of that, the greater responsibility I have to share Christ's blessings with other. Pray for me....that God would show me the path and steps He would have me to take.

"Not my will, but thine be done..."

"Don't tell me what I want to hear...tell me what I need to hear!"

The "Operation Global Rain" event has been going well as our church has been gathering together each evening to pray for the outpouring of the Holy Spirit. On my next post, I'll try to share some of my favorite latest words of inspiration on the topic of study. It's been such a blessing....and I pray this is only the beginning!

The last few days have been busy ones.....Have been working on an outline for a new program for CCBN called "Morning Sunshine" where I'll be sharing a upbeat message of hope and encouragement to help start the day off for our viewers. Am still working on a co-host! I think Maryann would be great....but she's not sure if she has time! So we'll keep praying about that! :-) Speaking of Maryann, since I didn't get to go climb Whitney this week, as hoped and planned, Maryann has been helping me stay in shape climbing the mountains around here in Loma Linda as she is preparing to go hike the John Muir trail with TJ this summer! Then this evening we even had a knock-down drag-out game of Racquetball, which was a blast! I'm out of practice, and she's still learning techniques, but she was still a tough one to play against, just the same!

Sabbath we went with Brad and Amber, friends from Advent Hope, as well as a few others, to a park in Redlands to help feed the homeless. We spent most of our time standing around singing to them or talking to them though. It was very rewarding, and they didn't want us to leave! One little Spanish girl had this cutest little baby boy that hadn't quite learned to walk. I played with him and held his hands while he took baby steps. He was sooo happy and all smiles! I was thinking on the way home that it would be fun to start a "FLAG CAMP" for kids in underpriviledged areas.....but there weren't many kids this time. (FLAG CAMP stands for "Fun learning about God" and is an activity day that we did for kids while I was at Southern. Games, songs, stories about God and some simple craft activities, etc. It was really fun! Of course, right now that is just what I need, one more thing to try to spear head.....but we'll see!)

Was halfway through my workout routine at the gym this morning when Alisha called. (She's been up in Victorville this weekend with friends, and planning to stay through the 4th of July!) But after a few days up there, she realizes that she's not happy there and wants to come "home" as she calls it! "Melody, can you come and get me?" she begged. Of course, she didn't have to beg too hard! These driving trecks back and forth up the mountain are really taking their toil on me, but how can I leave her hanging? She's decided that she's gonna give her son up for adoption (which I think is a wise descision since she's not ready in any capacity to be a "mother"), and so wants to move somewhere away from CA to make a new start with her life! We're praying about possible options! The whole ordeal has been really draining....but as I'd been recommending that she let her son have a chance at a normal home, while she didn't like it, she knew it was best. "Thanks for telling me what I needed to hear, not just what I wanted to hear!" she told me amidst tear-stained eyes the other day! (Too bad we can't all have that kind of attitude about advice and life!) "I'm sick of people just trying to make me feel better! I want help!!" she added. Yes, there is hope....one step at a time! Keep praying for Alisha!

There's lots more I could say, but it's been a long day, and I want to be fresh for an early morning start tomorrow (since that is now the only time I have to myself again!), so I am going to "hit the hay" as we say back at home!

A letter from Mom Holland to her girls...and a Parable to remember!

Dear Daughters,

Last Tuesday night I mowed the lawn out back...the grass has been growing so much we can’t keep up with it. With all the rain that we’ve gotten we have lots of frogs. Little ones in the grass as I would mow....And as I was mowing, these frogs would get in the way of the mower. There was one frog that hopped out in front of the mower on top of a piece of grass. I guess he thought that he had gotten out of the way, but if I would have kept going I would have mowed right over him (YUK!), so I stopped and caught him and moved him out of the way. Then there was the frog that was really moving to get out of there. He didn’t stop to look back or rest on top of the grass. He was moving as fast as he could to get himself out of the way. Then there was the frog that was just in front of me and was not moving. So I stopped to catch him, but he ran away scared. But the problem was that he ran the wrong way back into the grass that I was still going to be mowing. I never saw him again, so don’t know if he became mince meat or not. :( All of these frogs gave me cause to think as I was mowing. What was the spiritual application of all of this.

I likened the frogs to people and the mower to temptation, or the Devil. And I guess I would be representing God. Some people just try to stay out front of temptation...not too far away, but hopefully not getting caught. Then God gives them a little boost to get out of the way before the devil takes their life. Then there are others that are running from the devil and his temptations as fast as they can...they see the devil as a roaring lion (lawn mower) seeking whom he may devote. The other group seem kind of oblivious to the whole thing...they don’t see the danger and are just sitting there in the devils way, when God tries to help them they run away because they are afraid of Him. And of course, they run the wrong way.

I have been reading off and on a little booklet that ASI sent me called “Steps to the Upper Room.” It has some pretty powerful (scary) quotes in it. Here is one that I read today that really stands out to me. It is from Great Controversy p. 601

“We are living in the most solemn period of this world’s history. The destiny of earth’s teeming multitudes is about to be decided. Our own future well-being and also the salvation of other souls depend upon the course, which we now pursue. We need to be guided by the Spirit of truth. Every follower of Christ should earnestly inquire: ‘Lord, what wilt Thou have me to do?’ We need to humble ourselves before the Lord, with fasting and prayer, and to meditate much upon His word, especially upon the scenes of the judgment. We should now seek a deep and living experience in the things of God; the foe is lurking near, ready at any moment, should you become lax and drowsy, to spring upon you and make you his prey.”

Wow! How much God needs to open my eyes to how things really are. It is so easy for me to sleep and think that everything is ok. But everything is NOT ok. The end of the world is upon us. Oh, I pray that I will more forcibly understand that and all that it implies, and I pray that earnestly for you as well.

I hope this day has been one to draw you closer to the Savior. You are each precious to me. :)

Much Love,

Mom

*Mel's note - "I am sooo thankful for Mrs. Holland! And the parable of the frogs, I will never forget!"

Do we truly understand our Father's Love?

Praises

I have a few praises to share....the first of which involves Alisha! It may seem that all my blogging lately has been revolving around Alisha....And I apologize for lack of variety in subjects, but I can only share from my heart! And my heart this summer, since I stopped working, has largely been wrapped up in seeking to help Alisha. It's kinda funny, because I had been contemplating going to India or Bangledesh or maybe back to my homeland of Guyana South America for a mission trip this summer......but then a little while back it was like God opened my eyes, "What are you thinking about Melody??! I've brought the perfect mission opportunity right to your very door step! Why would you go off and leave that for some other unknown adventures?" So, my determination and desire to make this time count with Alisha (for I know it wont last forever) has been impressed upon my heart even more urgently!!

Progress is slow....and it's easy to get discouraged....afterall, you can't just instantly sweep away a life of pain and problems....but little baby steps are being made. God is working!! I've been creating a small Bible Study series for Alisha to do, based off the Amazing Facts study guides, but in more simple ways that are easier for someone like her to understand and at the same time involve more action on her part. I was to take her back up to Victorville again yesterday (where she'll be the rest of this week due to business issues), and wanted to send another lesson with her to work on, but hadn't voiced my desire. Then Alisha, on her own, asked.... "This lesson was great! Could you make another for me to work on while I'm gone???" "Of course!" I replied excitedly! I didn't let her know how excited I was, for I've been praying that she would seek these things on her own.....not just because I hand them to her! Praise the Lord!!! May she continue to have a heart that seeks for truth!

The second praise came tonight during our weekly Creator's Call meeting as we showed one of our "Set-Apart Life" episodes that we are in the process of finishing editing. The topic was "A Father's love." (Referring to the incredible love that God has for us!) Eric Ludy shared through many tears, experiences of raising his 2yr old son Hudson, and how these experiences have been drawing him closer to God. I wondered how our team would respond, as many of them saw and heard the message for the first time. But it was evident that the Holy Spirit was at work, for many of them were obviously touched and even had tears in their own eyes by the end of the program. Afterwards, several asked me, "When are these messages going to be available for the public! I want to share them!" or "That was incredible! We need more messages like this!!!" It's not perfectly professional....or massively eloquent, yet when God is able to speak through someone and touch the heart....that's all that counts! And I just praise Him that we were able to film this series.

The third praise is that tomorrow, we start our 10 days of Operation Global Rain!!! I know God longs to send the Latter Rain more urgently than we long to receive it, but I just praise Him for those that are getting together with the urgent desire to see the Holy Spirit at work, and to see God's work finished! And I pray that this will be a turning point for our church!

So many exciting things happening....sometimes I feel that my heart cannot contain it all! :-)Thankfully, God still only gives me what I can bear.....one day at a time!

Enjoying the outdoors with friends

Morning reflections...and updates!

Quote for the Week

"Unbelief allows circumstances to come between us and God!

Faith puts God between us and circumstances!"

From Doug Batchelor via a friend

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The soft morning breeze, so crisp and refreshing, beckoned me from my peaceful slumber. I could hear the birds singing softly outside in the trees, as the first rays of sunshine began to creep over the distant hills. Should I stay in bed and continue to seek rest? After all, this was SUNDAY! Or should I get up and welcome in the new day? Grabbing my blankets, Bible, and several books of inspirational, I chose the latter and headed for the patio swing. It was 5:30 am!

Yes, I admit, it was a bit early for a Sunday morning....but with a roommate in tow (that isn't always quiet and often needs supervision), I have been feeling more and more taxed as my times for quiet time and inspiration are often being disturbed! As I read inspiration, Jesus too was taxed.....for the multitude pressed about him. Yet, He made His time in the early hours of the morning to connect with His Heavenly Father. And as a result?

"From the hours spent alone with God He came forth, morning by morning, to bring the light of Heaven to the world." Ministry of Healing 56

If Jesus needed this quiet respite....how much more should we?

"All who are under the training of God need the quiet hour for communion with their own hearts, with nature, and with God. In them is to be revealed a life that is not in harmony with the world, its customs, or its practices; and they need to have a personal experience in obtaining a knowledge of the will of God. We must individually hear Him speaking to the heart. When every other voice is hushed, and in quietness we wait before Him, the silence of the soul makes more distinct the voice of God. He bids us, "Be still and know that I am God." Psalms 46:10. This is the effectual preparation for all labor for God. Amidst the hurrying throng, and the strain of life's intense activities, he who is thus refreshed will be surrounded with an atmosphere of light and peace. He will receive a new endowment of both physical and mental strength. His life will breathe out fragrance, and will reveal a divine power that will reach men's hearts." MH 58

Oh, if we as a people, could only grasp this beautiful connection....our need for true connection and looking up to our source of strength each day! What difference might be seen in our daily lives! What advancements might be more readily made for the cause of God??

This morning, I was blessed as I continued in my study of The Baptism of the Holy Spirit. (A booklet by Dennis Smith.) I wish I could get all my friends to read it and catch the excitement of what God is seeking to do in our lives!

A few brief thoughts I want to share from my reading this morning:

"There are two purposes for the infilling of the Holy Spirit: to reflect Jesus in our life (I John 3:24, II Cor 3:3) and to gain power for witnessing (Acts 1:8).

Couldn't get more plain and simple than that, huh?! And that's exactly what we need.....to more fully reflect Jesus...and to be effective witnesses for Him!!!!!

All who are ready to meet Christ when He returns will have had God's law sealed or written in their hearts (Isa 8:16). All who have God's law written in their hearts will have received the Baptism of the Holy Spirit..."

"A great many think because they have been filled once, they are going to be full for all time after; but O, my friends, we are leaky vessels, and have to be kept right under the fountain all the time in order to keep full...Let us keep near Him." They Found the Secret pg 85

"All true obedience comes from the heart. It was heart work with Christ. And if we consent, He will consent, He will identify Himself with our thoughts and aims, so blend our hearts and minds into conformity to His will, that when obeying Him we shall be but carrying out our own impulses. The will, refined and sanctified, will find its highest delight in doing His service. When we know God, as it is our privilege to know Him, our life will be a life of continual obedience. Through an appreciation of the character of Christ, through communion with God, sin will become hateful to us." Baptism of the Holy Spirit pg 38

I love that last part....through the work of the Holy Spirit in our hearts....we will be empowered and enabled to live His complete will....but it's not just His will....it's our will as well...for our hearts have been changed to be sooo in tune with Him that His desires are now OUR DESIRES!! :-)

Weekend Updates

The last few days have been good and challenging both! Friday evening Alisha and I came head to head over an issue of a friend that came to visit. I had told her that she could hang out with her friend for a couple hours in the afternoon, but come 7pm, we would be going to "singing bands" so that would be it. She knows the Sabbath is a day to be set-apart and she is not allowed to do her usual play. Well...as fate would have it, "Mr Friend" did not arrive on the scene till 15 minutes before we were to leave for singing bands. So, although she has loved singing bands in the past, she decided she did not want to go this time! I told her that "Mr Friend" was welcome to come with us...but I would not be leaving her with him to goof off for the evening. Well, that went over like a lead balloon......and she was most unhappy with me! But, since there were no other options (and she doesn't want to move-out yet, so knows she has to stick with the program) she convinced "Mr Friend" to come along! I prayed fervently for both of them as we drove the 1/4 mile over to the hospital, for with sour attitudes, I knew this could be a tough evening! However, praise the Lord....they both ended up enjoying themselves immensley! And "Mr. Friend" returned with us home to visit for a little bit before his ride came to get him....in which time I was able to talk to him a little and share the booklet The Five Big Questions about Life by Mark Finley. Nothing is by chance, and although his presence added some stress for the evening...I kept praying that He would be touched and impacted by the encounter! (Please continue to pray for "Mr. Friend.")

After it was all said and done that night, Alisha hugged me and apologized for her behavior and thanked me for making her go with me! And I heaved a sigh of praise heavenward as I wiped the sweat off my brow! (Well....there wasn't literal sweat, but it sure felt like it!) ;-)

The rest of the weekend went well....the Advent Hope services and Sabbath school were a blessing, as usual! The potluck was good although I don't even know if what I made tasted good....but since it (stuffed potatoes) all disappeared rather rapidly, I assume it was ok! Then in the afternoon, my dear friends, TJ and Maryann convinced Alisha to come along for an afternoon of adventures up in the mountains. She mostly spent the time on her phone...but at least she got some fresh air! We hiked up to the meadow off the "South Forks Trail" where we've had mountain church with Advent Hope and other youth in the past. It was great!

The evening ended with a gorgeous sunset as we drove back down into the valley....

And now we have begun a new week!!! I was planning to go do gardening again with some of the "gang"....but got caught up in my reading and studies, so that didn't happen afterall! But the fresh air was invigorating, the singing of the birds refreshing, and the needed strength and words of encouragement in my reading, timely! So....no regrets....just thankful for a new day and a new week to grow closer to my Lord and my Redeemer!

A Tribute to the important Men in my life!

Well, Father's Day came and went.....and somehow I was sooo distracted that I didn't get up my special "Father's Day Blog" tribute! So, I thought I'd take the time to do that now! :-)

Many children grow up without a father in their life....sometimes I wonder "why" I got so blessed? To have a father that was not only THERE, but that cared.....that taught us about the Bible, about forgiveness, about loving people, about giving to others unselfishly!!! I'll never forget that fall when I was 12 when Daddy and I went to help clean up the disaster on the East Coast after Hurricane Hugo. That is what really sealed our friendship and bond! And since then, while we've weathered many difficult life storms, and been on many more exciting adventures, and now I have moved far away......all the way to California.....that bond still remains! And I will be forever grateful for the "daddy" that God gave me!



Here Daddy is with my two brothers.....just before they took off on their growth spurt, a few years ago! It remains one of my favorite photo's of these three handsome men!




My hiking hero! Daddy and I have hiked more miles together than probably any other person in my life! And what a blessing we've had as we've talked and shared heart to heart during many of those miles. This photo was on a special "Father/Daughter" vacation we took together to Glacier in 2004!

Another favorite "father daughter" shot from Glacier!

And I can't honor dad without also including his first and favorite LOVE, my mom!! What a great team they have made over the years, and what a blessing it has been to watch them love and grow together! They have taught me so many lessons about relationships and loving that have majorly impacted my life.....and also helped me not be willing to settle for less than God's best!!

So happy Father's Day daddy.....AGAIN!!! Even though I called and sent a card through the mail, I wanted to do something a little more public to let you know, as well as the whole world, how thankful I am to have you in my life! I love you daddy, and will always be...your one and only, "Melodious Echo"

(A Tribute Cont.)

Of course, Mr. Holland (a.ka. Dad Holland) is also part of this special father's day Tribute....even though we were actually together for Father's Day this year! And our treat was a trip together to the San Diego Zoo! (Something I've wanted to do for years now!)

Like I already said above....most kids don't even have one father, and here....It's been so blessed not only with a wonderful father (mentioned above) but with a godly mentor and adopted father in Mr. Holland. He, more than any other, has probably helped me learn what it means to be a Seventh-day Adventist since I began living in the Hollands home as a late teen.

So thanks Mr. Holland for the love and advice and wisdom you've shared with me, for your endless patience, and for the sacrifices you have so often made over the years! You've taught me sooo much about what it means to practically serve God, how to understand the Bible, how to reason from cause to effect, how to be adventurious in trying new things and new foods.....and even how to cook....I mean really cook!!!! Some of my best recipes I learned from you! Yes, we've had our tough times and challenges over my teen and early young adult growing-up years, yet I can't imagine what life would have been like without you and mom Holland!!! ;-)



Dad Holland and his adopted girls!!

In Colorado on vacation last summer with all his girls! (Sweet Mom Holland took the picture!)

Some great memories from hiking in the Oklahoma rocks....otherwise known as the "Wichita Mtns"

Yes, Mr. and Mrs. Holland make a great team!!!! And I'm sooo thankful that they are not only my teachers and mentors, and some of my very best friends.....but also, my second "Mom and Dad!" Happy Father's Day once again, Mr. Holland. So grateful for you!

"Bloom where you are planted"

We don't get to choose where we were planted...what side of the fence or tracks we grew up on, or what our background was...but where we go from here, that is our choice! We can wallow in self-pity and blame others for the difficult soil with which we have to work...or we can take the difficulties that life has brought us and allow it to be fertilizer....helping us to bloom and blossom....just where we are, for God's glory and honor!!!!

One day at a time...

Well Alisha is back with me again - PTL! I went and picked her up yesterday from Victorville. She'd been having quite a tough time of it, and even ended up spending a couple nights on the streets, but since she didn't have her phone, she had no way of contacting me. (Thus the lapse in communication!) She hadn't slept hardly any the last couple days before I picked her up...So, bless her heart, she went to sleep on my shoulder during prayer meeting last night. But she said she was really glad to be back with us again! However old habits are hard to break. While she knows her old crowd and friends aren't good influences on her, she's still very controlled and pulled their direction and keeps getting herself into fixes!!!! Yes, she says she wants to follow God and learn how to be a Christian (and I believe she does), but it seems like it's difficult for her to see how her lifestyle isn't helping her that direction. Either that, or she just doesn't want to see it, at this point!! I keep praying that God will give me wisdom to know how to love her better, how to reach her, and how to help her learn to make God a part of everyday practical life.

There is soooo much to think about!! She's got severe severe depression.....I used the Nedley test to see where she was, and as I expected she's off the charts. So, with her cooperation, we're gonna work through the "Nedley Depression Recovery Program" together. We managed to get her up bright and early this morning for her sunshine and fresh air (a walk with Dafne up the street), then went over to the Drayson for a couple hours and helped her learn how to use the exercise equipment and her lungs! With a little encouragement, she did real well! I was proud of her. Then after I got a lunch packed, we headed to Newport Beach area to enjoy some time in the sun and waves. We're gonna be feeling that for a few days though since we both got royally scorched. (This mother hen failed in her duty to apply the sunscreen, obviously!) We finished the evening off with "golden grahams and smoothies" at Maryann's as TJ was on call tonight.

I've been investigating some options for her to get her GED and then possibly get her CNA certification since she says she wants to be in the medical field...and this would give her some really good exposure, before she committed to the long haul of getting a Nursing license or more. We're also gonna start working on helping her get a driving permit/license. Ho hum.....can you tell that Melody is gonna be busy?? Yeah, I need lots and lots of prayers, because I'm realizing more and more what a task I have cut out for me.....not just in helping her spiritually.....but overall, getting a start in life! I have to admit that I get a little "battle weary" every now and then though....and tonight may be one of those times. But...I have to keep reminding myself...one day at a time...

Up until this week, I had been planning to go with Jen Mundall and friends to climb Whitney, but since Alisha isn't up to the climb and has no good options right now, I'm not going to be doing that after all. Kinda bummed in one sense......yet I know that her life and salvation is more important than my reaching the top of Whitney. And they'll probably be another opportunity for Whitney some day! So we're looking for some more feasible options for Alisha! She loves the great outdoors, thankfully, so even a walk in the park is better than nothing. But I'm thinking about taking her on a little road trip and doing some more sightseeing, maybe even going up to Yosemite to meet Jen's group on Wednesday, and then we'd go with them on up to WYC. But we're still working out the details for that.

As I said....one day at a time....and today's been a full day....and I need to get Alisha off the computer and to bed....and so that means that I must get off too! (Consistency is a big deal for kids, as I clearly remember!) So....

Until next time...."One day at a time...dear Jesus, that's all I'm asking from you...."

A week of Adventures with Hollands!

Well...it's hard to believe, but our week with Hollands, visiting from Oklahoma, is already up and over! I still can't believe how quickly it went! :-( But we packed in as much excitement as we possibly could...so now, we have another collection of wonderful memories to savor until Jesus comes back and helps us make better ones!

Here's a little over-view to go with the photo's above!

Monday - June 11th - 5:20pm

Mr. and Mrs. Holland land in Ontario CA airport and text me notifying us of their arrival! Since we're not at the airport yet, I jokingly text them back that "We apologize that we can't be there to meet you and you'll have to hitch-hike back to Loma Linda!" Of course they know when Mel is trying to pull their leg, so they don't take me too seriously, and by the time they get their baggage, we have circled the airport 3 times waiting for them. So we are all re-united with hugs and excitement! They are hungry, so we hit a "Baja Fresh" near Loma Linda before going grocery shopping for the week and taking them home for the "grand tour." It's such a blast to have them here and also to finally get to show them our little cozy home!!

Tuesday - June 12th

I had originally planned to take Hollands up the tram and hiking on Mt San Jacinto, but Sunny isn't a huge hiking fan....at least not looooong distances, so we had decided to do something more relaxing. But then when Mrs. Holland arrived, she tells us that hiking up San Jacinto is the thing she was looking forward to more than anything else! (Of course, I am all game!) So finally mid-day we decide that is what we are going to do and we take off for Palm Springs. Much to my chagrin, we don't actually start hiking til around 1:30pm. The ranger station tells me that the hike to the summit is a 6-8 hour round trip, but I keep the news to myself, encouraging everyone that we can make it there and back before dark! And we do!! Mrs. Holland and I made it to the top.....and Sunny and Mr. Holland would have if we'd had another hour to spare. But we were definately pushing our time limits! However, we made it back to the tram station in a record 5 hours and 30 minutes, so we beat the ranger's predictions! ;-) I thought everyone did really well....but I forget sometimes that these Oklahomians don't have such mountains to climb, so this was a real work-out, and they were feeling it for the rest of the vacation! But....they asked for it!!! So, what can I say! ;-)

Wednesday - June 13th

After another slow start lazy morning, we head to the beach near Costa Mesa (Mr. Holland's old stomping grounds), but before we get there, we are getting hungry so have to stop and eat. Mr. Holland and Sunny want to go to P.F. Changs. (I've only been there once before on my "doctor date" and wasn't that impressed with the food) But this time is better...especially the dessert - Banana Spring rolls with Ice-cream! ;-) Then we walk around a little through the outdoor open mall called "Fashion Island." What a fitting name! They have a "Neumann Marcus" which I've heard people have bought $400 dollar shoes at! I don't believe it so want to see for myself. The first shoes I picked up cost $395, and Sunny found a pair for $1,500! I am like totally blown away!!!!! Even most underwear cost over $100 there! Is this real?? I guess everyone will know now that this isn't my level of living or spending! ;-/ All I can think the whole time is, "Man, what a waste! Imagine how all the money people spend here could be going to help finish God's work so he could come back...?" We browse around a few more places like "Make a teddy bear factory" etc, then realize it's already 3:30pm and we need to be heading back to Loma Linda since Mr. Holland has prayer meeting at Advent Hope. We barely make it back in time! Prayer meeting goes well...It's neat to hear him preach again! His sermon title "Do you want to be a millionare?" makes me think of all the vanity we'd seen during the day! It also convicts me again of our need to give ALL for the Pearl of Great price!


Thursday - June14th

Mr. Holland and I, along with Maryann and her father (who is also visiting) take off bright and early for the San Diego zoo for a Father/daughter date day! We have a blast, and of course, I take tons of pictures!!!! Makes me wonder what Heaven will be like when all the creatures can play together freely. My favorite of the day are the Cheetah and dog that have been raised together, and then the Polar Bear exhibit where we actually get in on some pretty exciting action! I'm thankful there is a thick glass between us and them! (Mrs. Holland and Sunny enjoy a relaxing day back in Loma Linda!)

Friday - June 15th

Lazy morning.....go to the Drayson for Racquetball.... Mr. Holland and I go fruit grocery shopping for the evening.....and then after lunch, most of the afternoon I spend making fruit pizza's for our gang of friends coming over for supper and vespers. I'm a little worried since I was suppose to pick up Alisha today, but haven't been able to get ahold of her since Wednesday. During vespers, as we are sharing different things God has done for us, or songs we want to sing, I come across Mrs. Holland and I's signature duet song that we've done together many times over the years. So we sing it together again....but the tears are flowing as my heart breaks for Alisha and others that still don't REALLY know Jesus....and I can hardly get through it.

The words go like this:

"If I could have one wish I know just what I'd like to find,
If I could have one dream come true before my eyes.
More than a pot of gold, more than a pathway to the stars,
More than anything I know, I want Jesus in your heart!

If I could paint a picture in my mind of what I'd like to see,
If I could take you once inside my deepest dreams...
More than a treasure's goal, more than a comet traveling far,
More than anything I know, I want Jesus in your heart!

He's more than all the world can give, when He truly comes to live in your heart.
Why do you try to search for more, when He's all you're looking for, in your heart...

If I could have one wish I know just what I'd like to find,
If I could have one dream come true before my eyes.
More than a pot of gold, more than a pathway to the stars,
More than anything I know...I want Jesus, I really want Jesus, I want Jesus in your heart!"

Sabbath - June 16th

My favorite day of the week - what a blessing to fellowship and be inspired. After the main services at Advent Hope, and a scrumptious potluck with friends, I return to listen to Elder Bostrom share about "making Sabbath a delight." The rest of my family decides they want to go to the mountains again, so they enjoy their delights out in nature while I glean ideas and tips for future special Sabbath's. :-) Then we close the Sabbath with some hearty singing and more good fellowship. And I return to join my family for the evening.

Sunday - June 17th

Starts off bright and early (6:30 am) as I head to Jonathan's Z's (along with several others) to pull weeds and prepare more gardening lots. While I already have all the tomatoe, squash and pepper plants I think I need in my own back patio, it's good to work with other young adults that are digging into the dirt and learning how to grow their own food. I don't have space for fruit tree's though, so maybe I can contribute some of those to this new joint/group endeavor that I was invited to be a part of. Hollands and Sunny come over to eat breakfast with us, then we take off to the coast to meet Ken (one of Mr. Holland's best friends from childhood.) After another scrumptious healthy meal at the "Souplantation" we head to the mountains to hike. However, we have to drive in 4 miles of very bumpy rutted road to get to the trail head (at about 10mph) and I get deathly carsick. Then once we get there, we realize you need a "forest adventure pass" (which no one has) so we have to promptly turn around and drive out! I am miserable......but somehow manage to survive until we get home! (The only bright spot from my afternoon is that Alisha finally calls, and I know that she is safe! I will pick her up on Tuesday again!)

Monday - June 18th

Can't believe it's been a whole week! I get tears in my eyes thinking about Holland's leaving! While they enjoy their last relaxing morning before they have to go back to work, I pull weeds and water my own backyard garden of vegetables and flowers. We get a rare treat as we get to talk with my sister Rita in Romania over the internet phone! It's great to hear her voice! Sunny leaves to go back to work mid-day, and then I take Hollands to "Chipotle's" for a scrumptious burrito! We all agree that we've eaten out more this week then we have this whole entire last year, but it's been fun to show them some of our favorite restuarants and food. Finally, they pack their bags and I drive them back to the airport! And before I know it, they are off! I try to act grown-up and hide my tears, but they know me too well. I am just too much a family person....and parting is one of the hardest things I ever do! I cry as I drive home! But it's been a good week, and at least I'll see them again in late July when I fly home to spend some time in Arkansas and Oklahoma, and travel with them to ASI! If only time didn't go soooo quickly.....but then again.....I'm just thankful for the time God does give us together! And I want it to go quickly, so that He will come back and take us HOME!!! Then, they'll be no more tears....and no more parting.....and no more pain of separation!

As I'm finishing this post, they call me on the phone to notify me that they have arrived back in Oklahoma safely! (I secretly wish I'd snuck inside one of their bags and gone back with them!) Their flight was delayed, but thankfully, they made it safely! That's what's important!

And now...I must close as I prepare for this new week - getting Alisha on a schedule, working on CCBN projects, and traveling up to Northern CA on a road-trip, possibly some filming and more adventures!!

God is gooooooood!!!! And Happy is that people whose God is Lord!!! Ps 144:15

Don't be Left Behind.....

Growing up, I always heard a lot of talk about the "Former and Latter Rain." But what was that? What did it mean? Did it really apply to my life today??

I have to admit, that I didn't pay much attention.....in fact, I pretty much just ignored the topic or let my mind glaze over when someone would bring it up. But that's because I didn't understand it. I didn't understand the incredible significance it has on our lives today! I didn't understand what I was missing......I was as one "left behind."

Lately, as our church has been preparing for and praying more earnestly for the "Latter Rain," I've been studying the topic more in depth, and what a blessing it has been. And I just want to share a few powerful quotes and insights that I've been inspired by lately.

First off though, in case there are any of my friends that don't clearly understand what the "former and latter rain" is, let me review. (I shared this for my prayer meeting last week as well!)

In the Bible, "rain" is a symbol for the outpouring of the Holy Spirit. (See Duet 11:14, Jer 5:24, Joel 2:23, Zech 10:1 and others)

Jesus often used symbols to portray very significant points. The casual reader or observer might pass these things by, but those seeking truth and looking for insight in God's Word could never pass this by!

The DIFFERENCE between the Former and Latter Rain

Former Rain Literal Application: In the East the former rain falls at the sowing time. It is necessary in order that the seed may germinate. Under the influence of the fertilizing showers, the tender shoot springs up.

Former Rain Spiritual Application: As the dew and the rain are given first to cause the seed to germinate, and then to ripen the harvest, so the Holy Spirit is given to carry forward, from one stage to another, the process of spiritual growth in the human heart.

Latter Rain Literal Application: The latter rain, falling near the close of the season ripens the grain and prepares it for the sickle.

Latter Rain Spiritual Application: The ripening of the grain represents the completion of the work of God’s grace in the soul. By the power of the Holy Spirit the moral image of God is to be perfected in the character. We are to be wholly transformed into the likeness of Christ. The latter rain, ripening earth’s harvest, represents the spiritual grace that prepares the church for the coming of the Son of Man. " Testimonies to Ministers pg 506

Left Behind Cont.

Now I want to share some powerful quotes telling what we need to be praying for and seeking, as we prepare for the Lord's soon coming and seek to finish His work here on earth! This is incredible guys!!!!! Don't let your mind glaze over......don't let yourself be "left behind" on this exciting movement!

"The descent of the Holy Spirit upon the Church is looked forward to as in the future, but it is the privilege of the church to have it now. Seek for it, pray for it, believe it. We must have it, and Heaven is waiting to bestow it!" Evangelism pg 701

Why is this "Latter Rain" and outpouring of the Holy Spirit sooooooo vital for our lives today???

Because we need REVIVAL.....and CLEANSING to be READY for Jesus to return!!!

- The Holy Spirit will prompt us to spend more time in Bible study and prayer, thus transforming us into the Character of Christ and preparing us to meet Him. (Ps 42:1-2, Matt 6:33)

-The Holy Spirit will teach us to identify when Satan is throwing stumbling blocks across our path. (Eph 6:12, I Pet 5:8)

-The Holy Spirit will teach us to pray in deeper ways. (Rom 8:26, Eph 6:18)

-The Holy Spirit will make the scriptures become the Living Word. (Heb 4:12, I Pet 1:23)

-The Holy Spirit will convict us in deeper ways of our sinfullness. We will not have peace until we confess and turn away from every known sin. (Ps 51:1-2,7,9-11,17)

-The Holy Spirit will help us loose our infatuation with the things of earth and look towards our heavenly Canaan. We will seek to purge our homes and lives of anything that gives Satan an inroad or influence in our lives. (Gal 5:16-17, Rom 8:5-9)

-The Holy Spirit will give us a sense of urgency to share with and pray for others salvation. We can't just keep sitting idly by, minding our own business, when many around us are about to be lost!!!! (Matt 24:14, Job 22:29-30, Luke 13:6-9)

"I saw that many were neglecting the preparation so needful and were looking to the time of 'refreshing' and the 'latter rain' to fit them to stand in the day of the Lord and to live in His sight. Oh, how many I saw in the time of trouble without a shelter. They had neglected the needful preparation; therefore they could not recieve the refreshing that all must have to fit them to live in the sight of a holy God." FLB 337.4

"There needs to be a waking up among God's people, that His work may be carried forth with power. We need the Baptism of the Holy Spirit." Evangelism 559

"Why do we not hunger and thirst for the gift of the Spirit, since this is the means by which we are to receive power?? We do not talk of it, pray for it, preach concerning it? The Lord is more willing to give the Holy Spirit to us than parents are to give good gifts to their children. For the baptism of the Spirit, every worker should be pleading with God." Testimonies Vol 8, pg 22

And one last POWERFUL Quote that I just read this morning, as I was reading Christ Object Lessons. This is incredible guys!!!!

"In the great and measureless gift of the Holy Spirit are contained all of heaven's resources. It is not because of any restrictions on the part of God that the riches of His grace do not flow earthward to men. If all were willing to receive, all would become filled with His Spirit...All Heaven is waiting for the channels [you and me] through which can be poured the holy oil to be a joy and blessing to human hearts." Christ Object Lessons pg 419

Just imagine, what is at our very finger-tips, if we'd only ask.....

Obviously, I'm really excited about what I've been reading and studying, as I realize it is the KEY that we need to not only be prepared in our own hearts to meet Jesus [the work that Christ started when we first came to Him through the "former rain"], but that it is also necessary to complete the work in spreading the gospel to all the world. Just like in the day of Pentecost, God promises that once again, the Holy Spirit will be poured out with excess.......but only those who are open and seeking will receive it. Some will not even be aware that it has come!!!!!!!

Let's not be the ones LEFT BEHIND!!!!!!!

*For more insight and study on this exciting topic, read "The Baptism of the Holy Spirit" by Dennis Smith, or go to: http://www.operationglobalrain.com/ and see how you can become part of this exciting movement!

Motherhood and growing pains...

Well....I'm not a mother yet actually....but I kind of feel like one sometimes!

The last three weeks since Alisha became part of my life have been a real adventure! I know that God brought her to me for a reason as He longs to save her and see her find a more abundant life in Him! However the magnitude of the task at hand is sometimes overwhelming!

Alisha has made sooo much progress in her life......giving up her drugs and drinking, and even (just since she's been with me) choosing to quit smoking! But there are still sooo many mountains to climb....so many obstacles to overcome! She's never had anyone that she could trust, and has been wounded and let-down more times than any of us could count. Running from a suicidal and pyschotic mother (who taught her how to do drugs and cut herself), she's been in various group homes, slept in parks or on the streets, and bounced back and forth from one friend's home to another (all of which were also doing drugs and drinking and similar destructive behavior). She's afraid to allow anyone to see the real Alisha for fear of more rejection! And when boyfriends talk of committment or marriage, she panics and runs. Yet, she has an 11th month old child (currently in a foster home) and says that her greatest desire is to "get my baby back." But if she got the baby back.....what would she do with him? She has no idea how even to begin to get her own life in control....much less, be a parent!

Since Alisha has come to stay with us I've had to set down some standards and guidelines for her life! For example, "You need to be in bed by 11pm, no rock music played out loud in the house (haven't told her she can't listen to her walkman though), you will go with me wherever I go and do what I do (can't just lay around a be a lazy bum), we keep the Sabbath holy and no MYSPACE internet play on Sabbath (that had gotten way out of control!) There have been other guidelines as well, but those are a few things we started with. Yet, I've been seeking to keep a balanced approach realizing that "love" is the greatest tool of discipline that she needs in her life.

My biggest challenge and struggle latey has been that of the Rock 'n Roll music that she listens to all the time! I'm not talking little soft-rock meloncholy romantic beats like many Christians justify as being "ok." I'm talking "hard core" possession type music!!! Like, "Let's go get stoned!" type messages! While she's given up many bad practices in her life, music is her coping mechanism. While she claims to want a relationship with God, she doesn't trust Him or believe that He can take the place and fill the holes in her life that she needs......so....she always has her music to turn to! She doesn't know how to make the verbal affirmation of Christ become a practical part of her every day life and survival! And so I've been seeking to love, to point to the truth and to point to Christ, but to just keep loving! The battle between good and evil has never been sooo clear in my mind!!!! It's sooo obvious....but not to her! She just doesn't see it!

Nights are one of our most difficult times as she gets depressed in the evenings and can't sleep. So lately almost every night I've been up at 2, 3 or 4am talking, praying, reading the Bible to her, and trying to help her relax and go to sleep! I don't do good on low amounts of sleep for very long, so am feeling the toll. But I guess I am getting an idea of what it might be like (in a small way) to have your own child to take care of. I also know from the early years of helping raise my brothers, that they don't sleep through the night either....at least not in the beginning! But at least when you are raising a child, you have a partner to help carry the load. Right now with Alisha, I am feeling very alone...yet, I know that God has not forsake me and has a purpose through all of this!

Alisha is gone with friends for the day, so I can recoop a bit and have some time to actually "think." What a blessing!!! And of course, I had to call mom! "Mom!" I wailed. "I'm not sure about this mothering business!! This is exhausting!!!!" She just laughed at me. I continued, "Now I can understand more what you went through all those years for kids!! I don't know how you did it!!!"

Yes, in a small small small way......if three weeks can show you anything, I have a little more appreciation for the sacrifices my parents and especially my mothers have made! (And God knows all the late nights they've sacrificed for me!)

When I was younger I use to dream about having lots of kids. When I was in highschool my classmates called me "mother mel" because of how I was always looking after everyone and hearding everyone around. (I suppose I was a bit bossy too!) But as the years have gone by (while I'd still like to have my own children, if God so wills) my greater desire has been that to be a mentor to help hurting youth and young adults find God!!! CCBN has been part of that answer to my prayers......as well as some other special girls that I've been priviledged to get to know and help over the years since highschool. But bringing someone into my home with this kind of background and these kind of challenges to work through has certainly been a new experience all it's own. And sometimes I wonder, "God.....what are you doing with my life? What are you preparing me for? I'm willing.....I'm willing......whatever you ask.....I'm willing.....but could You give me some ideas and some hints about what's up?" But God just smiles as usual......and doesn't say much except, "Trust me, my child! Just trust me!"

And so.....Mel grows some more. (And hopefully I never stop!)

*Pray for Alisha and that God will be the Master of all the things that master her!!! And pray for me that God will give me patience, love and strength...and wisdom to know how to guide her!

Sabbath Outing up to Lake Gregory

After a wonderful Sabbath service and vegetarian potluck (that even Alisha enjoyed) we headed up with a group of girl's to the mountains! We were to meet up with some others that had gone ahead, but our two groups ended up on opposite sides of the lake, so it was a little confusing trying to connect! However, finally we did!

The outing (as well as enjoying the Sabbath) was in honor of Julie's birthday! And after a sundown worship on the lake, we went out to eat at a wonderful Belgian Waffle restaurant to celebrate the event. Most people got savory menu items (besides waffles they made burgers and other good things as well) but Maryann and I chose to take the sweet menu, as you will see by the pictures! It was great!

Look at that!

Just being goofy!

Pull ups with Lorinda's help!

Isn't it beautiful??

Walking around Lake Gregory

Jonathan's dune buggy!

Check it out, he's got Wendy pushing him! :-)

Julie and Mel on the dock

My Alisha

TJ and Maryann strike a pose

Julie, the Birthday girl, with Wendy

With our Belgian Waffles for supper!

MMMmmmmm......doesn't that look good???

The Most Precious Possesion we have!!

Went looking for a "Bible Picture" to go with tonight's blog entry and found these from my experience in Kenya last summer. In fact, it was exactly a year ago this time when all this took place! Looking through the pictures makes me anxious to get out of my comfortable home and cozy setting again and hit the overseas mission field!

When you see the people and how they respond to the WORD of God and the sacrifices they will make for God, once they've discovered His love and grace, it's awe inspiring!!!!! They don't have anything hardly to their name, but when they discover Jesus, they know that He is ENOUGH!!!

Why can't we be that way here.....or is it because we are "rich and increased with goods" and feel that we have need of nothing....the cares of this life have consumed us!!!!

Oh Lord, save us, or we perish!!! Open our eyes to our true condition!!!

Notice the reverence with which they receive their gift!

Here we are giving out Bibles to the new believers after my Evangelist series in Pala - a village way out in the Kenya Bush. This occurred last summer!

Are we really grounded on the WORD????

"Man shall not live by bread alone, but [man shall live] by every word that proceeds from the mouth of God." Matt 4:4

[Mel's comments: Sooooo....does that mean as Christians that if we are not living literally every day of our lives based on the WORD OF GOD, that we are not actually alive spiritually????]

"All scripture is given by inspiration of God....that the man of God may be perfect, thoroughly furnished unto all good works!" II Tim 3:16

[Is this really possible? A man of God today.....perfect? The Bible seems to portray that it is! If we don't believe it or haven't experienced it, might there be something vital that we've been missing?]

"God will have a people upon the earth to maintain the Bible, and the Bible only, as the standard of all doctrines and the basis of all reforms. The opinions of learned men, the deductions of science, the creeds or decisions of ecclesiastical councils, as numerous and discordant as are the churches which they represent, the voice of the majority - not one or all of these should be regarded as evidence for or against any point of religious faith. Before accepting any doctrine or precept, we should demand a plain "thus saith the Lord" in its support.....It is the first and highest duty of every rational being to learn from the scriptures what is truth and then to walk in the light and encourage others to follow His example." GC 595 & 598

"It is not conclusive evidence that a man is a Christian because he evidences spiritual ecstasy under extraordinary circumstances. Holiness is not rapture: it is an entire surrender of the will to God; it is living by every word that proceeds from the mouth of God; it is doing the will of our heavenly Father; it is trusting God in trial, in darkness as well as in light; it is walking by faith and not by sight; it is relying on God with unquestioning confidence and resting in His love...Having brought conviction of sin, and presented before the mind the standard of righteousness, the Holy Spirit withdraws the affections from the things of this earth and fills the soul with a desire for holiness. "He will guide you into all truth." John 16:13, the Savior declared. If men are willing to be molded, there will be brought about a sanctification of the whole being. The Spirit will take the things of God and stamp them upon the soul. By His power the way of life will be made so plain that none need err therein." AA pg 51-53

"The season of distress and anguish before us will require a faith that can endure weariness, delay, and hunger - a faith that will not faint though severely tried. The period of probation is granted to all to prepare for that time. Jacob prevailed because he was persevering and determined. His victory is an evidence of the power of importunate prayer. All who will lay hold of God’s promises, as he did, and be as earnest and persevering as he was, will succeed as he succeeded. Those who are unwilling to deny self, to agonize before God, to pray long and earnestly for His blessing, will not obtain it. Wrestling with God - how few know what it is! How few have ever had their souls drawn out after God with intensity of desire until every power is on the stretch. When waves of despair which no language can express sweep over the suppliant, how few cling with unyielding faith to the promises of God." GC 621

"Those who endeavor to obey all the commandments of God will be opposed and derided. They can stand only in God. In order to endure the trial before them, they must understand the will of God as revealed in His Word; they can honor him only as they have a right conception of His Character, government, and purposes, and act in accordance with them. None but those who have fortified the mind with the truths of the Bible will stand through the last great conflict. To every soul will come the searching test: Shall I obey God rather than man? The decisive hour is even now at hand. Are our feet planted on the rock of God’s immutable word? Are we prepared to stand in defense of the commands of God and the Faith of Jesus." GC 595

[Above are a few of my favorite quotes from a collection I shared for Prayer Meeting yesterday. The topic was "Being a people of the WORD prepared for the Latter Rain." I know that for many of us, this is old hash.....but we all need to see with new eyes.....and I am praying that this might help propel us along that way....]

The Luke Warm Church Song Book

The Luke Warm Church announces publication of "Church Songs," whose title, according to the editor, was chosen because "We didn't want to turn anybody off with threatening words that no one understands anymore like 'worship' or 'hymn.' People in today's society get kind of uncomfortable with too much talk about things like commitment and dedication. They'd much rather have a religion that they can turn on or off at will. Our book seeks to meet that need."

Sample contents:

* A Comfy Mattress Is Our God
* Joyful, Joyful, We Kinda Like Thee
* Above Average is Thy Faithfulness
* Lord, Keep Us Loosely Connected to Your Word
* All Hail the Influence of Jesus' Name
* My Hope is Built on Nothing Much
* Amazing Grace, How Interesting the Sound
* My Faith Looks Around for Thee
* Be Thou My Hobby
* O God, Our Enabler in Ages Past
* Blest Be the Tie That Doesn't Cramp My Style
* Oh, for a Couple of Tongues to Sing
* He's Quite a Bit to Me
* Oh, How I Like Jesus
* I Lay My Inappropriate Behaviors on Jesus
* Pillow of Ages, Fluffed for Me
* I Surrender Some
* Praise God from Whom All Affirmations Flow
* I'm Fairly Certain That My Redeemer Lives
* Self-Esteem to the World! The Lord is Come
* Sit Up, Sit Up for Jesus
* Special, Special, Special
* Spirit of the Living God, Fall Somewhere Near Me
* Stick Nearby, It's Getting Dark Outside
* Take My Life and Let Me Be
* There is Scattered Cloudiness in My Soul Today
* There Shall be Sprinkles of Blessings
* What an Acquaintance We Have in Jesus
* When Peace, Like a Trickle. . .
* When the Saints Go Sneaking In
* Where He Leads Me, I Will Consider Following
* God of Taste, and God of Stories
* Lift Every Voice and Intellectualize

CCBN comes to our house!!

How's that for FOUR slide shows in one day!!! Well...needless to say, as the following slide shows and pictures will show, I have been very busy lately! (And you thought since I was off work, I could take it slower! Yeah right!!)

Yesterday we filmed at our place...Scott's testimony, and then Jason and Janel's love story and how God brought them to the truth! It was a real blessing....in fact, I'm not sure how we're gonna cut down much of what they said...so we might have a looong program! ;-)

Alisha is gone for a few days to take care of some legal matters...so now, besides catching up on my blog, I'm trying to get caught up on some stuff for CCBN as well as plan the schedule and adventures for the next few weeks. Mom and Dad Holland are coming out next week to spend with Sunny and I, so we're real excited about that! Then not long after that I leave to go to Whitney and then the Youth Conference at Weimar! So no moss will be growing under my feet any time soon...just anycase anyone was hoping! ;-)

Hope you enjoy the pics from the last week of Adventures.

PS: Jen, I know I didn't get this "picture report" up the same day....but hopefully the "day after" is good enough to qualify! ;-)

Day at the Beach with Maryann, Alisha and Friends

This excursion happened this weekend after we got back from Colorado! I was wanting to take Alisha to the beach, since she hasn't been in a long time, and then Maryann asked if we wanted to go with her and some friends! So it was perfect!

"Great minds think alike!"

Creator's Call Filming Trip to Colorado!!!

This last week in Colorado was such a powerful growing experience spiritually!! I don't even know how to describe it! We got some awesome scenic footage as well as many life-transforming Biblical messages that I know are going to impact many people. I praise the Lord for Eric and Leslie and their stand for truth!!!

Not sure what my favorite memory would be from the week? Was it watching Alisha bloom and blossom under the power of God and the love of godly peers? Was it having her hug me sooo tight I could hardly breath as she told me she'd never been sooo happy in all her life! (Better than any drug high she'd ever had!) Was it being convicted and compelled to step up "higher" as Eric talked and brought the Bible to life? Was it talking and crying with Amie as we shared our desires and dreams to serve God more fully? Was it basking in the glory of God's creation, watching the Elk, enjoying the Colorado mountain air and overwhelming beauty of the rockies? Was it the heartfelt prayer gatherings that lasted sometimes up to 4 hours and gave us all a new meaning of the word "Communion with God." Was it praying half the night as I drove during the wee hours of the morning as we headed home? Was it the warmth and grandeur of Zion National Park? Or was it laughing our heads off as Dave and Amie argued over how to drive "properly" and not get a ticket. Maybe I can't pin-point a specific favorite memory...for it was ALL of these!!!

Yes, as you can see by the pictures! This trip was a real blessing...in a larger way than I could ever describe!! But though words are inadequate...I will keep trying!

*For more info on the "Set-Apart Life" Ministry of Eric and Leslie Ludy, go to: www.setapartlife.com

Loma Linda School of Medicine Graduation

The day before we left for our Colorado Adventure, many of our friends graduated and became Doctors! :-) Here are a few pics from the festive and special occasion!

PS: Just in case anyone is wondering...I'm very glad to be "just a nurse!" God knew the path that was best for me...and I couldn't be happier!!

Alisha ~ A work of God in progress!

Well...where do I begin? How do I tell in 5 minutes about the miracle I’ve been praying for the last 2 months?

I first met Alisha in the hospital. She was my patient....and a very unhappy and non-compliant one at that! Before I came on shift she’d already had one run-in with security and had multiple nurses disgruntled. She’d over-dosed and thus part of her diagnoses was "Suicide attempt." This was the 10th time in her history she’d done something like this and she was obviously very unhappy with her life. But from the moment I heard her story, I knew God had arranged for me to take care of her for a purpose! I also knew it was no accident that God had kept her alive, and I knew that I had to attempt to break the chain/cycle before she tried again. All day long I prayed that He’d somehow open the doors for me to get through to her.

Finally in the afternoon, after she’d blown up at her doctor and was in a rather disgruntled state, I sat down and asked if we could talk. I asked her how she was feeling and what was going on in her life that was making things sooo difficult. She began to tell me about a son that she’d lost to protective services due to her drug abuse, about a mother that was in the hospital at that very moment for a drug over-dose, and about a past of pain and emptiness. She cried, but she would not look at me. When she stopped talking, I began to share some of my own story and how God has made such a difference in my life. I then shared how I knew God had a special plan for her life. That’s why she’d never succeeded in taking her life. And I told her the story of the great Controversary and how Christ came to die for her. Her eyes were now on me as big tears rolled down her cheeks. It was like she could hardly believe what I was telling her was true! "Do you really mean that? Could there really be a God that cares about me?" her eyes seemed to say. I could see the pain and longing all mixed into one. I got tears in my own eyes. "He loves you, Alisha!" I told her! "He wants to save you!! Would you be willing to give God a chance? Would you like to give your heart to Him and start over with a new life??" The tears flowed more freely as she softly nodded, "Yes!" We prayed together. And then talked a bit more.

Not long after, she was moved to a Drug Rehabilitation facility, and I wondered if I’d ever see her again! I gave her some inspirational reading and my number, and told her I’d be praying for her! And pray I did!!! I’ve probably prayed more for Alisha than I have any other one single person over the last couple months! I knew that starting over and doing things God’s way would be very difficult, especially with the influences I knew she had.

Well...sometimes, God uses us to answer our own prayers....this last week Alisha called me on the phone. I was sooooo excited to hear from her!!! She was waiting to go to a new facility, but was in limbo and didn’t really have a good place to stay. Influences were bad, and she didn’t know what to do. I asked her if she wanted to come and stay with me for a little bit. She said that she would. I told her if she came, I wasn’t just going to provide a place to crash....but that she would have to do what I do, go to Church and Bible study and exercise and etc with me. She agreed that she was willing! I told her it would be a "culture shock" for her! But I don’t think she realized how much of a culture shock it would be! ;-)

I picked her up this past Friday.....the first big shock was that "we" would be going to church on Saturday, not Sunday! But she was willing. (Incidently, she loved it and said she wants to go back!) The next was that I don’t have a T.V. She’d never heard of someone not having a T.V. The third was that I’m a vegetarian! She said she’s always wondered what "vegetarians" eat. So now she is finding out! And probably the biggest is that "Christians have fun and really enjoy life!" Wow!!!! What an amazing discovery!! ;-) From the enthusiastic Bible studies on Sabbath (both at church and home), to the happy warmth and love of fellowship, to hiking around Forest Falls and laughing with Friends and praising God, she’s gotten a small glimpse of the joy of our fellowship!

There is lots of things to deal with....lots of hurdles to overcome....and I may only have Alisha with me for a few short days as she will have to return to the next Rehabilitation program as soon as there is a opening. But I’m thankful that God brought her to me for today and am praying that these few brief days can have a lasting impact on her life! I am awed that God would entrust me with the opportunity to share with Alisha and give her a positive example of His life and love. At the same time, I’m overwhelmed with the vastness of the responsibility at hand. Thankfully, it is God that must make the changes in her heart.....my job is to love and to share and to point her to Him.

Pray for me....and pray for Alisha, that she will truly fall in love with God...and allow Him to change her life!

We leave in just a few brief hours for our trip to Colorado where we’ll be filming the Discipleship Training series with the Ludy’s. This series has already majorly impacted my life. I pray it can be a blessing to our team and viewers as well...but especially to Alicia! If it’s quiet on my blog for a bit...it’s because of this! I have lots more to tell (as usual) but that will have to be later.

Alisha and I enjoying God's creation!

Matching skirts

Here we are with some matching skirts we picked up on Friday! Alisha doesn't/didn't own a dress or skirt to her name! So we had fun finding several pretty things that she can wear to church and enjoy being a lady in. While she's a rough and tough girl, she's also a princess at heart, just longing to be a lady...you can see that in her smile! It's a joy to see her blossom!

Out to dinner with a Buddhist doctor...

Yesterday was the last day of my nursing contract for this time period at Parkview Medical Center. (They want to have me back, so I may do a shorter contract in the fall...but we'll see!) For now I am off to work on CCBN Ministry needs and also to take on some new people ministry needs as God has recently brought to my door. (More on that soon!)

For the moment though, I have to tell "one" of the amazing things that happened yesterday!

I was talking with one of the doctors about a patient I was taking care of and he asked me why I wasn't a "Pediatric Nurse" as I have a fun emblem on my jacket that says, "All creatures great and small, our Lord God loves them all." I proceeded to tell him how I'd wanted to be a Med-Surge Nurse so I could get a broader medical experience and also be better trained to do mission work. Then, as he charted progress notes and I charted assessments, he continued to ask me question after question about what I do and why? He was obviously blown away and yet interested and said, "You must really have a big heart!" I replied that, "When God has done a lot for you, you want to share that with others! He (God) has given my life sooo much joy and meaning! It's not a sacrifice to serve, it's fulfilling!" He was like, "Wow....that must be nice!"

Then some other nurse came along and was like, "Melody! This is your last day! What are we gonna do without you?" I just laughed. And the Doctor looked at me..."You didn't tell me it was your last day here?" He then asked what I was gonna do next, so I told him a little about Creator's Call. And I gave him one of our ministry info cards that I keep in my pocket. Then he had to run and I had to go do something for a patient, so we parted.

However, I had not seen the last of him. Within 30 minutes he was back and came looking for me down the hall. "Melody....are you doing anything tonight?" He asked. "No, why?" I responded. "Well, I was thinking that since this was your last day here, maybe you'd let me take you out to eat. I'd really like to hear more about your beliefs and philosophies about life!" Now it was my turn to be blown away. "Sure!" I responded. He gave me his card and cell number and we parted.

Several more God-ordained appointments took place after that.....but my mind kept going to the coming evening and wondering what God had in store. And I kept praying that He (God) would give me wisdom to share my faith clearly and adequately with this young searching Vietnames Doctor. I even called both my mothers to ask them to pray for me! And God answers prayer, because he really blessed.

To start off with, after he picked me up in his classy BMW, he asked what kind of food I like to eat. I told him I'm a vegetarian, and he was like "Wow!" He asked why and I told him.....a combination of spiritual and health oriented reasons. He's like, "Well, I guess you turned out ok for being a vegetarian!" I had to laugh!!!

We went to a nice Chinese place and the food was good! (We both ordered vegetarian as he said he couldn't eat meat in front of me after what I'd shared!) The best part of the evening though, was the conversation. I learned a little more about his background and shared some of mine and then we dived into the weighter matters of interest......God, and purpose and meaning in life and the Great controversary. Before we had gotten too far in our conversation, I asked what his religious background was and he told me that he was a "Buddhist" but not really practicing. I thought to myself, "Well this will be a first!!! But God, you didn't arrange this meeting by chance, so please give me wisdom and tact and the words to say!"

I found out that he hadn't been interested in Christianity before because He felt that it was just tradition and memorized prayers and forms and riots. I learned though, that he had Christianity and Catholicism confused and mixed together. So I told him the difference and then began to tell him, starting at the beginning when Lucifer fell from Heaven, the story of the Great Controversary and how Jesus had come to die for us. I told him how we based all our beliefs on the Bible as the Word of God, and so thus, being a Bible-believing Christian, this is what we believed. He listened intently and asked question after question. "Why did we need a substitute, why did God allow lucifer to have the choice to sin, who created hell....and on and on!" We talked for almost 2 hours!!!!

Finally, at almost 10pm he took me back to the hospital to get my car and we parted. But not before I gave him the "Hidden Truth - Amazing Bible Facts Revealed" from Amazing Facts and we shook hands. He seemed to have really enjoyed the evening and said he had a lot to think about. My prayers went with him! Now, the morning after, I've already received a "thank you" e-mail from him. And for my thank you (after all, he was the one that treated me out) I'm planning to send him a "Great Controversary" which is one of my favorite books regarding the history of Christianity and the great battle that we are in!!!!

So....God has a thousand ways to orchestrating events to bring the truth home! I'm just sooo excited to be a tool in His hands and am eager and excited to see what He has in store for the future. Being able to share my faith with a doctor is like a beautiful grand finale that God has given to this hospital experience. I have been soooo blessed.....and many more blessings are on the horizon!!! But more to be posted soon!

*Note - I wont be leaving this post up on my blog long-term as I will probably allow my new doctor friend access to my website and blog eventually.....so this is only up for now! But please, for those family and friends that read!!! Keep him in your prayers, that God will continue to open his heart and show me ways of sharing.

My Sabbath...

This time, instead of for a birthday, I made a"Happy Sabbath" cake! Everyone seemed to enjoy it, and I had fun being creative!

"Happy is that people whose God is the Lord!" Ps 144:15

Yesterday was another beautiful Sabbath filled with many blessings! Of course it couldn’t help but start good, since I’d gotten all my cooking and cleaning done Thursday (after work) and so Friday night was the first normal night of sleep I’ve gotten all this last week! It was hard to work the two days right in a row before the weekend, but I made it! Praise the Lord!!

Advent Hope services were, as usual, also inspiring! For Sabbath school we talked about one of my favorite topics, and that was the POWER of the WORD of GOD, especially as it changes lives! The group Bible study leader did an excellent job at getting right to the heart of the topic, as well as making the lesson study interesting, inspirational and interactive. The point of the whole study was, "Are we allowing God’s Word to reshape and recreate (sanctify) our hearts?" If we read the Bible through and through and yet do not digest its power and allow it to transform our daily lives (in all the little details) and most importantly our HEARTS (every tiny nook and crevice), we’ve missed the whole purpose of the gift that God’s given us!!

"Wherewithal shall a young man cleanse his way? By taking heed thereto according to THY WORD. Thy Word have I HID in MINE HEART that I might not sin against thee." Ps 119:9,11

"A NEW HEART also will I give you, and a NEW SPIRIT will I put within you: and I will take away the stony heart out of your flesh, and I will give you a heart of flesh. And I will put MY SPIRIT within you, and cause you to walk in my statutes, and ye shall keep my judgements, and do them." Ezk 36:26-27

"But study to shew thyself APPROVED UNTO GOD, a workman that needeth not to be ashamed, rightly dividing the WORD of TRUTH." II Tim 2:15

"And be NOT CONFORMED TO THIS WORLD, but BE YE TRANSFORMED by the RENEWING of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and PERFECT WILL of God." Rom 12:2

After the morning services, and some choir practice fun (brings back memories of my college days), I headed back to our place to get ready for the Advent Hope Potluck. We had no idea how many to expect, and I was afraid that we wouldn’t have enough food. But I needn’t have worried!!! Our little home was packed.....at one point in time, Susy counted 85 people here spread out between the living room/kitchen/back patio/and my bedroom. WOW!!! I would never have imagined! But everyone seemed to have a blast and it was an honor to host the gang. (After all, this was one of the reasons I wanted to have our own place....so we could have people over!!) Got to meet many new faces, and had some great conversations with new friends. I hope to be able to do this much more in the future!!!

After lunch, while the majority left, probably 15-20 stuck around for a Bible study with Peter Gregory. Peter’s kids went to sleep on my bed, and I was sooooo tired I went and took a nap on my sister’s bed. Everyone made themselves at home though, so it was good!

Then around 5pm I got my strawberries and whip cream and headed over to Burden hall for the "Strawberry Fest" and End of the Year slide show program! We had a nice supper (I was too stuffed from lunch to eat) and then worship. To close worship we made a huge circle and put those in the middle that will be leaving our group this summer, so we could pray for them! It was a bittersweet moment and at the end when we sang "Side by Side" it made my think of my Highschool grad when we had our last prayer meeting together and joined hands and sang "Side by Side." It’s hard to see influences that I’ve grown to respect and appreciate move on...but God knows the paths we each must take, and I know that someday He’ll bring us all together again, if not here, in Heaven!

"The steps of a good man are ordered by the Lord and He delighteth in His Way..." Ps 37:23

And so, as you all can see, it was a very full, but very blessed Sabbath!! God is good!